My bf lacks accountability of anything
 I mean taking responsibility when anything goes wrong and taking it withna pinch of salt. 

He behaved so dumb or under communicative about something and then he got so aggressive
And triggered me. I didn't react.. But within me got triggered.. The striking similarity between him and my passive aggressive dad, both with poor crisis or situation al management abilities and lacking patienceand bf started driving so so fast .. The car.. He got angst and drove so fast... I felt really scared. Within. The fear of passive aggression and felt so triggered. 
 So I feel triggered. , he doesn't realize doesn't care. 
Moreso bcoz I have a trigger of so much anger from my dad m Mom too. 
I hope I feel better. And find peace. 

Aditya Sahu 

Same situation with me girl😓 i dnt know wht to do about it

Other

i used say that i hate my dad, he was abusive, all this time i was carrying the trauma, im learning to let it all go. he's my dad after all. i never thought ill let go of all of those. it feels strange but am trying. ik my dad loves me. but sometimes i just can't help but hate him. am i weird ?

3am Thoughts

I've seen stuff about my dad that nobody else has. I cannot love him the same i did. Honestly, forget love. I cannot see him the same way as i did before. Both my parents have been working since i was a very small kid and being the only child , i used to crave for love and spending time with them. But since my dad kept sailing, I never spent a lot of time with him anyways.  He has been grounded for the last 5 years and i haven't seen any particular development in our relationship either. I do keep getting jealous of my friends whose parents take them out to beaches,  trips abroad or within the country or state as well but my father hasn't even bothered. He takes my mom and i for dinner once in a while but it's only for the sole purpose of eating and not "spending time together". We constantly keep fighting over my grades. I don't get good grades because i'm studying PCM against my will. I don't understand it and i hate it. I keep getting compared to my friends who all weren't as bright as me back in class 10 but are way better than me right now (LIKE EXCUSE ME SIR, IS IT MY FAULT THAT I'M STUDYING THIS BS?) I have no voice in my family and my opinion doesn't matter. The other day my dad literally told me stuff like if you get bad grades and put my name to shame, i'll slit your mother's throat and kill myself. I won't let you have fun spending my money and this actually scared me because i know that he is capable of doing so. I Hate That Man more than anybody else i know. But people treat him like a reverend, people worship him because he was very professional at work. Nobody knows him like i do. every second i spend with him feels suffocating. I just want to leave..

Lonely

aah , so today i was waiting for breakfast and i get something which owned by dad so my mother said she takes your thing and he started yelling (like he is not yelling for us he  is yelling for neighbors)and said to her why didn't you say her to not take that she is idiot not even have 1% brain but you have and started saying worst things to me and expressing that i'm a load at her his duty is to pay her fees for school and for clothes n food and abusing her saying that her future will be bad huh?i really made me feel bad but i control cause his mentality for me is always like this always saying that not good at study(not being good at math science doesn't mean that i'm not good at other subjects) not have manners not good looking. I really felt bad every time when he try to say anything to me,just sometime i ignore sometimes it breaks me and i fell more bad when he try to say something bad for my younger sister. he believes what have said first he doesn't care that its true or not and when i try to say whole matter or truth he says i'm answering sorry but i can't take anyone else mistake words to me.how much i try to control he says more worse then that.

Family

Hi guys, an Indian girl here. I really needed a place to vent and pour my heart out in a forum that is non-judgemental. 

I have never seen my parents happy with each other. Always bickering, fighting, and name-calling and there have been rampant instances of physical abuse on my mother by my dad over the past 30 years. 

My mother comes from an extremely well-off family, is well-educated, an independent woman, and worked at a bank. My father hails from a not-that-well-to-do family, is well-educated, and worked in a senior position at a manufacturing firm. He is a narcissist, an egocentric individual who is slightly sexist too. The kind of person who blames other people for his failures and problems. It is taking me a lot of courage to speak up but my father has been so violent with my mother during their early years of marriage that one day he accidentally broke my mom's nose. He has beaten her up very badly that it gave her bruises all over her back, hand, and legs. My mother has often left home in the middle of the night and we took shelter in public places: sometimes in a temple, sometimes at a bus stop and my father could be least bothered about it. He had filed a divorce case once and we started living separately. I was 7 years old back then. I am talking about early 1999. Indian society has always been condescending to single women and I am talking about a time when it was not very common in India for middle-class women to leave their husband's homes and live on their own. We have faced backlash, and humiliation wherever we went. My mother has tried to shield me the best she could but society is always cruel. 

When I see the people I have known living happier lives, living their dreams, I can't help but get jealous and lament about the life I have never had. A traumatic childhood, unloving grandparents, being considered a burden, I have seen it all. I have been affected by the mental trauma inflicted by my father which has molded us for the worst. I have been in severe depression for the past several years, have no social life, no friends, never been in a relationship. My past demons are so dominant that it has affected me in ways I cannot imagine.

This is not a cry for help. I just want to get out of my past and live a better life.

Depression

hi guys,
i feel so stuck at the moment. my mum is with a guy that constantly drinks and when he does he gets mean and passes out on the couch. my mum always defends him and says "he has a lot on his plate right now " or " he hasn't been drinking as much" they fight all the time even when she denies it. his been a complete a**hole to me the whole time I've known him, he called me horrible names and said things like "you wonder why your dad doesn't want you" i never got an apology instead i got yelled at for showing attitude back to him after he said those things and he never got in trouble. every time he drinks it takes a massive toll on me and i sometimes i need to just talk to someone about it rather than bottling it up . my mum told me "if you say anything to anyone i will be VERY mad " and "i wouldn't tell anyone about your business " so i cant talk to no one about it and especially her as she always gets defensive and I'm always the bad guy in the end. Every time me and him get into a fight they always use things against me such as "his good enough when he can buy you things" .its such a toxic household and i feel so trapped.

Emotional Abuse

Have you ever felt so much hatred towards your dad that you wanted to seize his existence or like him to vanish (possibly the nicest way I can put it out there) I hate him.. I do. It’s just killing me inside that I’m never able to say this to his effin face. My body hurts with all this hatred. 

My dad publicly admitted that he hates me...

Anxiety

What would you do if you come to know that your parent is cheating on his/her partner? I mean of you find your mom cheating on your dad or vice versa? Talking is not a solution. It happens every time and no doors are opened! It's the same always!

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