mixed exicted and worried.
my distant cousin who I have been trying to seduce for some time but have never shown that much intrest. sudenly was convenced by her freind to do a threesome with me but I have to pay the freind $180. I'm just worried that my cousin is going to rob me, is being guilted into this, geting into sex work or like me but doesn't wnat to adment it. i am going to do it but I'm worried for my cuz. i will answer any question I just want to know what going inside her head.
also I don't care but would rather not fuck the friend  

You won't know what is going on in her head till the time you don't talk to her and discuss this with her...It'll be best to have a talk with her about what she actually wants

Success

Human touch has miracles. I am missing on these. Family is far away and here I am trying to be with myself. Interacting with random people considering them as my frnds. Laughing on silliest jokes and coming back alone in room. 

3am Thoughts

I taught my cousin sister is sexually unsatisfied even she is married her age is 26 and her hus age 37 she used to watch porn also. I thinked this way due to her desire she used to move close to me i felt uncomfortable im a shy and innocent guy i think she is that kind of girl but never crossed my limit, to know what she is thinking i misbehaved with her she used behave normal even getting close, after that her parents passed away she gone into depression and i too so i taking care of her and her sister i saw she is getting close with my brother in law i felt worried why she keep moving close with her i taught she may make relationship with my brother in law , or any person if she do i think she will ruin both families and i decide to ask her and im very shy guy don’t know this type of things and said to her i got feeling on you becz ur moving close to me like and she said no i felt so mad hw she is thinking mad about i got into depression and porn addicted and misbehaved with her multiple time when i apologies she used to talk to me but i never changed my mind i used to keep hurting her and felt sad if she not talking to me i felt so sad and when she talking to me i ignored her later i realizes and tries to talk with her she avoids me , one she caught me spied on her in bathroom and tell to my sis and mom they taken me to therapist he said this is common don’t be depressed like this but how can i do this to my sister she is already in pain , i overthinked about her and i depressed and now im in this stage where i don’t want to live . Why im not kind of person why i behaved like this im hating myself , she is not talking to me im feeling like hell , i loves her so much but its gone another way , i used to care her so much but now everything has changed , iam feelings bad for my behavior hw she is thinking hw bad she felt when i do this hw much she gone into stress and hw bad she felt i missed the girl who loves me so much , i loses her trust how can i get her trust again she used to care for me even i misbehaved with see hw much she care for me, i behaved like this im hating myself , i hurted the first person in my life ,my overthinking has taken me to this situation, im hating my life

Adulting

Anyone up for a thread on how sexual assault in young teens is so common? Without them even knowing what’s actually going on! Speaking from experience here, having gone through that has definitely led me to having a lot of esteem, trust and confidence issues in my adult life! 
Full story in the next thread - want this to be super thorough! 

Harassment

I have gone through sexual assault when I was 13. I never knew I was traumatized by it way too much until like 2 to 3 hours before. I want to get over it. Can someone help me with it???

Anxiety

Why do i miss human touch? Specially a silent romantic human touch

I need some serious advice on what to do. I'm an intern at this broadcasting company and on the first day one of the coworkers I met looked extremely familiar and he even said the same thing to me but we never really focused on how we know each other. Any way time passed and o started developing feelings for him and so I started investigating on how we k ow each other. I showed my mum a pic of him and she told me that he's grandma and my grandma were friends or something like that . And I didn't tell him that I found out our connection.  So a couple weeks past and I waited for him to figure it out and he didn't so I was planning on telling him sometime this week. But today he came in and asked me if i knew one of he's friends and I told him that yes the guy is my cousin  and them he proceeds to ask .e if I k ew they were friends and I said yes and was waiting on him to figure everything out. 
So here's the thing my cousin likes to drink and he's not a quite drank and he's done a few things that to be honest makes me feel ashamed of being related to him.

Anyway he then proceeds to to tell me how he figured it out. Then he also ask me oif I Kew one of his other friend this one a female who was dating my cousin and I tell him no . Then he proceeds to tell me that my cousin hit the girl and that he's crazy when he's drunk. I didn't know that my cousin ever layed a hard on one of his girlfriends before and I was honestly shocked but I didn't let it show. But I did tell him that I did not know. I haven't known him very long but I do know that he is a genuine and honest guy and that the term 'friend' between them is applied loosely atleast I assume.
He then tells me that one of my cousin's friend is the one dating his sister. He's mentioned his sister dating someone that he doesn't like before but I didn't know the relation it had to me.


I'm a very grounded person I don't party  i don't drink I don't smoke and I always make sure to be kind to people,
I've seen how drugs and alcohol has I fluency some of my friends and family members so I've sworn off any alcohol and substances. I’ve also worked hard to build a good reputation with the people I've met.

But now I feel like because of my relation to my cousin the way he sees me has changed and I don't feel like it's a good thing and now I feel like he no longer feels safe to talk about he's personal life with our coworkers around me.
I feel so ashamed and embarrassed I think  I'm going to apologise to him tomorrow on behalf of my cousin .

I wanted to get this of my chest cause i don't really have anyone to talk to about this.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.




So here the thing 

Relationships

maybe i shouldn't have dated my bff brother, Now since things are changing there is no connection at all anymore. Can't even look at him or touch him w out there being a problem.

I was in a relation with my sister's friend. He is almost 4 years elder than me. We had 5 months relationship. But on new year we broke up. He cheated me in the starting of the relation(1 month). Now its been 3 months and sometimes he just text me that i am in love with you, we will manage, we will adjust blah blah blah. He is always so convincing that he truly loves me but idk i am afraid to get heartbroken again. I am always afraid that weather i will be comfortable with someone else just the way i am with him. Bcoz he is the only person i have felt this much of comfort. Just tell me what should i do

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