Memories stuck in my mind, thoughts racing
Every movement, every sign
The twist of expression,
Each utterance stays still
I wish it was all a dream, a magnificent lie.
Like a nightmare, it’s permanent
Like a broken record, it keeps replaying
As if this is life’s meaning.
How does one erase a reminiscence
That’s so deeply engraved,
Where sleep is never an option
After it’s remembrance.
The thought of it shatters the heart,
Breaks the soul into unrecognisable fragments
Making you pick up the pieces
That now hold no resemblance
Ones that you can barely remember as your own.
So, tears stop their flow
And you begin to accept everything you aren’t
You keep your quiet, let the world dim your glow
It’s all but a hoax,
Your existence mixed into dull brushstrokes
As you become a side character
To your own tragic end
- adieu, dear friend.
“And you begin to accept everything you aren’t” - why would this happen?
It’s a moment of crisis. Overthinking and especially those who have mental health issues, like I do, then we gradually just accept the things we’ve been told to us by others. It’s the result of a toxic environment. These don’t need explanation because it’s understandable.
Get it now. Thanks for clarification. Really super writing 👏. Hope you heal fast from your difficulty. Hope to see more of your writings.
Thank you for reading!
Frankly read 3 times to understand, you see slow to process.
Aww, I appreciate that actually! I’m glad you understood it
Truth be told, I still can’t get the whole picture. But understood it bits and pieces. It needs a thorough break down and then re assemble the pieces. I am not up for it today. Having a real tough time so can’t put my mind for it now. But will come back and I want to read more poetry and maybe write too.
Yes, my write ups can be a bit (actually alot) intense. I hope you’re doing okay, my dms are open! Take care of yourself.
Sorry dms are open means?told you slow to process😩