**Letter for you**
Listen carefully,
Never let i repeat never let your past 
Have a domination over your present,
No matter how much bitter it is , no matter what you did, as long as you learnt the lesson,its over...i know you might be still crying over, being worried about what if it comes back but trust me
Now it won't affect you, it having a influence over you Only Because you allow it...I'm here for you so don't think you are alone.. take care

- Queenn 👑

Mental Wellbeing

Falling in love is so beautiful! 💗💗

Compassion

Any Hyderabad Telugu speaking guy there??? Just want to talk.. 

3am Thoughts

Is there any med student ?

College

Hate this feeling in my gut. I feel scared nervous and shitty!! 
Like something is definitely gonna go wrong!


it’s getting worse. i’m just a 14 year old kid i want to be happy. i’ve recently went to therapy and discovered that i had MDD, which is major depression disorder. i have a few other things too. i thought the therapy was supposed to help me. i feel like it’s not helping me. ever since the end of 6th grade i’ve started to feel “depressed” . i’m scared to tell people they might think i’m making it up or attention seeking. but it has progressively gotten worse to the point i would cut myself. no one has seen me actual go through it i guess. i completely hide it at school or around anyone. some people know now and i wish that they didn’t i don’t even want a therapist. i had to talk to my mom about it but it was so frustrating because she just kept trying to make up excuses for the way i was feeling i wish i never told anybody. i hate people. but i have no one to talk to that’s fine but when i start overthinking and a lot of other things it’s bad. i don’t even want to talk about this on here honestly. these “depressive” feelings were pretty bad in 7th grade for me i guess because i transferred schools and was the minority and i still am, i didn’t let it get to me it wasn’t something that triggered these feelings but around this time i came to realization i had nothing. there was nothing to do in my life. then things got better when i found temporary distractions. i got a bsf and a boyfriend during the end of 7th grade and beginning of 8th grade. i found these distractions because i had no interest in anything anymore and i also found anime which kept me a small thing to look forward to watching the next episode you know. then things got worse again. i wouldn’t say i lost interest in anime completely but i can tell i don’t enjoy it as much as i used to that might be normal though idk. things are getting worse for me. december 2022 things were getting bad for me i lost interest in a lot of things like a lot i didn’t even care to talk to people. then i lost my grandma and she died on my birthday 2023. then my boyfriend left me said i wasn’t good enough for him and he left for some other girl. idc anymore i don’t want relationships. i’ve tried with two other guys after that break up and they wanted to use me for my body and leave. i ghost everyone now because i have attachment issues i hate myself for that. well i hate myself for a lot of things but that is beside the point. i don’t want to talk to anyone but when things get really bad i have no one to talk to at all. it’s 4 in the morning for me and i’m not even tired. i don’t understand i should be sleeping. lately i haven’t been eating. i’ve been thinking more suicidal lately too. i don’t want anyone to try and comfort me and say i shouldn’t do this or that or disappoint my family because i already have. i don’t want to hear the same things about “don’t do it” “there’s a lot to live for” it’s pointless i cant just believe some meaningless words that someone said to me, a few words now can’t just stop years of misery. thank you for wasting your time reading this if someone is. idk what’s wrong with me. i have 1 friend in school but they don’t even need me i’m not their priority and i get called annoying a lot im trying to change. i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i’m so delusional so dramatic so ugly so useless such a failure. i used to be a straight A student but guess what i don’t even care about my grades anymore i don’t care about anything atp. since i’ve been on a small break from school all my days have been blending together i thought today or i guess yesterday since it’s morning was wednesday but it was friday. i’m losing track of time. these days that just keep passing are creating one endless loop of misery that just repeats itself over and over again. there’s no point in living when you have nothing to live for. depression already took what i had inside me so it’s like finishing off the rest of the job just think about it that way and everybody’s time will come eventually. learn to accept death. you guys shouldn’t be scared of death when you know nothing about it you guys are just scared of the unknown. who knows it could be great plus i doubt for me it couldn’t be any worse than the way i am living now. i feel like i’m not getting across exactly how i feel. i’m completely lonely and i have literally no one to talk to at all. but i don’t need people. over this break all i have been doing is laying in my bed and watching tik tok i feel so lazy i get up to do my chores and stuff. i’ve been doing the same exact thing everday. i have nothing else to do. i don’t even get excited to do anything or go anywhere anymore like normally people would get excited to go to amusement parks or something but i don’t get excited or happy. i am genuinely not happy i wish i could be. every single day is draining. sure school could be a distraction or could be better than staying home but i’d much rather stay home than go to school im sure anyone would but atleast some people are genuinely happy there unlike me. i don’t want to sound like some attention seeker. i have nothing to do with my life it’s completely pointless. i don’t have a goal. i can try and set one if someone is thinking “Oh, just set yourself a goal then you’ll have something to look forward to” that’s not how it works i also have no motivation im tired and you might think just go to sleep or how are you tired you’ve been laying around all day. you don’t think i know that? i’m mentally tired and somewhat physically if i could just sleep and feel better ye that would be great but i can’t i can’t even sleep right now. i’m sorry this is long to whoever is reading this if anyone does. i just can’t do this anymore. i can’t even get across how depressed i feel. 

Mental Illness

Any broken people here up for late night talks?

Friends

Last night was worst.. it all started when my boyfriend said that he don't feel we are best friends anymore... Like we don't do things which best friends do.. i was so confused because according to me everything was normal.. and the 'things' he was talking about.. it don't happen Because he can't forget my past and always taunts me for my choices in movies or series. He's the reason i deleted all my social media accounts ( except this because he don't know i use this ) because he used to continuously taunting me and controlling me to watch certain type of video or post. And all of that was so mentally exausting that i deleted all. 

Then he again remind me my past.. insulted me in every possible way.. even indirectly called me s/√t and pro.. 
And i even found out that his brother told things from my past to one of my boyfriend's close family member. 
 I'm completely broken. And i can't even say all this to my own boyfriend because he thinks i play victim card and s#it. Totally fedup and tired of all this things 

Anxiety

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