Kinda lonely..... I have people in my life but idk, i just see, kinda lonely all the time..... I have friends but they wont even stay in touch with me. I am kinda new to this place but I ready to forge new relationships here.

This was my last resort, I have tried maintaining physical relationships really. I am not an introvert or anything. I really have tried. I am trying to work on myself but the waves of lonliness constantly hit me everyday....

Thanks all for your replies, really, but I have come to this forum just to seek out some advice.... I am not on the verge of a breakdown or something but I have come close to it on many occassions..... I find activities in the day to keep myself occupied but I just can't get my mind out of the fact that no one wants to talk to me. It's summer break now and literally I just chat with one person from my college. I have forged close friendships but no one wants to talk to me.... I always have to initiate the conversation first and they always seem to be busy and just leave me on read. I just wish I had a gang of friends who would take me in. We would have loads of fun.

Lonely

When I will get pregnant?

Children

We may want to make people happy but that does not mean we let them mistake our kindness for weakness. 
People can take advantage of a person always wanting to please others. Learn to say No and take control of your lives.


3am Thoughts

I always say to people that i hate my birthday but actually i love birthdays but hate when no one does anything for me like i give surprises to everyone but no one does anything on mine and it hurts so bad . I haven't celebrated my birthday from last 3 years and bow I'll be 18 so I decided to celebrate but i was talking to one important person in life and she said that she can't make it to my birthday . I have always been there for her . I am just hurt . Like why can't i have gifts and surprises for my birthday ever . Even if someone give my teo balloons whole heartedly I would love that but no one does that i am only stupid one who does all that

Please! Someone connect me ! I wanna share a lot of things! My head is just bursting 😭

Frustration

I need a shoulder to cry my heart out😔

Breakup

There is no one I could call and speak comfortably at 2:00 am. Basically I dont even have anyone to listen to me at 2:00pm too... I wish I was not like this but I am. Wish I could move freely,talk freely, laugh freely but this never ending doubts and thoughts wont stop and I cant do anything without my own permission. Life sucks. But everyday I wake up and try no matter what... and every night its the same . 

Depression

Scars are beautiful, isn't it? 


I have had a very rough childhood due to which I have always been a shy kid.
My father didn't treat my mother well. My mother couldn't leave him due to her personal reasons.
My father and mother since childhood didn't really understand me and always scolded me instead.
As I grew up, my father started to make me feel I am good for nothing just because I failed one test. He forgot how I used to be in the top 5 all my school life.
He started mocking me for my whole life about that 1 exam which led to my self confidence going very low.
I feel I can do a lot as I have a lot of Calibre but due to my father's negative words I am not able to. I feel weak.
Currently I have got an admit from a top b-school in France but I still feel that I am not good enough.
Because he is never happy with whatever I achieve.
Also , my parents are very partial towards my brother.
Whenever he does something wrong nobody says anything to him but when it comes to me their anger increases.
My brother doesn't give me any respect while talking and whenever I question my parents about his behavior they say I overthink there's nothing wrong he does.

All these experiences are making me lose my self confidence. I am losing friends.
I feel very depressed and I now hate meeting with people which I feel will be a disadvantage for me once I reach France as I ll have to interact with other people.
But I don't know how ll I able too, I feel so low and don't know what to do 😔


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