ive started enjoying my own company,idk if it because my frnds have just stopped caring about me ,or is it because its just a survival way to not get hurt,idk if its bad also to feel good in ones own company ,I mean comparing to how I was before.!

I get you..i have been there ..as in hiding inside a shell..i also prefered my own company since no one not even my friends actually caree what was going on with my life..so better to be alone.

Friends

Nothing feels like life when 
your heart is unhappy💔🙂

Loss

Yesterday I got my result and I failed now I just can’t have spirit to tolerate anything 
Life is giving one trauma after another without stopping I just tired of everything

Anxiety

Who wakes up early and thinks that it really makes a difference in your studies and maintaining consistency ?

Education

Situation: Actually both of my parents my mom and dad are alcohol addicted due to that many Dispute or fight happens all the time. Also I am in my 2nd year of college. I want to study in a well environment but the fights and disputes happening inside my family inside my house is giving me mental Pressure, depression, anxiety, lose of appetite, Anger issues. Actually I’m a very observant person from my childhood. So one thing I can definitely say that all these things that are having or happening inside my family is due to their alcohol addictiveness. Because of that I have developed a serious hatred Towards alcohol and people who are suffering from alcohol addictiveness. Which includes both my parents. I even tried to talk calmly with my parents to convince them that alcohol is it good for their health but then also they wouldn’t listen to me they will always shout at me even though I have not done anything wrong I have just told them to not take alcohol. My father he even fell in front of our house due to him being so drunk from alcohol that led him having blood clotting in his mind or brain but successfully it was removed through a brain surgery. Even though my dad stubbornly drinks till today even my mom drinks. My father is a diabetic person who suffers from hypertension, sugar, blood pressure. I know his drinking habit is due to him being an ex-airforce servicemen. Whatever I do to convince them they won’t listen to me they will say we will die but we will never leave alcohol that is our way of living. My mom is a house maker she started drinking in the influence of my dad even she doesn't want to improve their lifestyle. It’s like they have totally forgotten that even I, a living person who is their daughter, is living with them in the same house who is having mental and health issues due to their Stubborn alcohol addiction. Due to this I find it hard to even eat when I’m hungry. It’s like I am hungry there is food for front of me I can eat it but psychologically I can’t it’s like I can’t even lift my spoon up in front of my mouth. Due to that I lost my weight my immunity also got worst that led to having weak immunity and I started having headaches in odd times something more like migraine headaches. My parents told me to be self sufficient & self independent but how can I be self independent when they are the ones who are pulling me back not letting me move forward. Due to their alcohol addiction many melodramas or dramas were created by them In many gatherings or parties in past which led to our image or reputation being bad.

Conclusion: First I want to know how I can ta. Second, I really want someone's suggestion who can help me in this situation and at least tell the ways to convince my mother so she can take the first step towards a alcohol addiction free life after that she and I both will help my father to live a alcohol free life.

Addiction

When you joined this platform to get over from trauma but instead you get another one lol

3am Thoughts

It's 20:30  Standing on roadside to wait for my sister  There is light of only vehicles amd street light with no Moonlight but still able to find a star in the sky. Today I'd seen my collegemate post where I get to know he completed MA economics and MBA in data science and artificial intelligence.  then I feel what was I'm doing in last two years. why did I stop to learn and grow.

Hallucination

How exactly do you date someone without really thinking about the future? Without thinking if it's gonna work or not? I'm overthinking so much about the future. How do you live in the present?

Adulting

Oh my gosh my dad is making me mad so much that I get short-tempered, like I didnt mind that he controlled the way I dress or who I can befriend or not but now he's trying to control what I eat and drink like what the fuck am I supposed to do?! I can't just let him control what I eat it's none of his fucking business how do I let him understand that he's an asshole. I'm literally underweight or skinny so why?

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