I’ve never really talked about how I’m feeling but I want t ok give it a go. I’m just so confused and down like this past year and a half has just made things a lot worse. My parent’s true intentions was revealed and i feel like I’ve learned all my friend’s true personalities. I’ve been struggling feeling down and just lost motivation then sometimes out of nowhere I would get really happy and excited and start coming up with stuff and buying thing to improve myself (a lot of gym stuff). But then I would get down again and would cut myself, cause that’s the only thing that relaxes me and something I can focus on. I just get so stressed about my job but then i just wish they would fire me. I feel like that’s the last thing keeping me here. And i don’t want to let anyone down.
Btw I put trigger warning cause I don’t know better safe then sorry.