Ive been depressed, not getting out of bed to pee for more than 24 hours straight kinda depressed. And no, he was not the sole reason. The sole reason was not having a motive. To not know what I am living for. I was not enough of a purpose to motivate myself.
The thought of standing up and exerting my body or mind to do anything that was not for him for the rest of my life, made the whole concept of living feel like one long sadistic joke. I either wanted the hope of having him in my future or I didn’t want a future. I’d die in a heartbeat, I’m as of all not very convinced with the idea of living and doing your best.
The absolute worst part of depression is even though you know you’re depressed, you’re unable to stop yourself from making it worse. I wanted to get ruined and not get better.
Shane @shanejones
Hey, I know exactly what you are going through. The thought of the person you love not being a part of your future hurts you like a mf. It’s not gonna be easy and you have to go through this pain. I am still recovering from mine but I’m better than I used to be. So I just want you to know that with time it will get better. So don’t lose hope.
I appreciate your response shane, thank you so much ♥️♥️
Shane @shanejones
Hope it’s better for you ❤️
