Umar Farooque @farooq_21
Itās been 5 years of that darkest period of my life. nd while writing this my innerself is saying āit wonāt help youā. But anyway iāll write since itās the first time iām sharing this out.
I donāt want to call myself a mental personā¦no iām not. But i am so frustated of myselfā¦ I have not been able to do anything in my life since then. Itās like a ghost that haunts me every time iāve tried to do something and move on. The flashback and fake scenarios everytime is what i live with. Itās not that i iāve left every thing. At times when i m under pressure iāve done tasks and moving along with lifeā¦ But but iāve turned into a a person i never thought of a pathetic personā¦ Iām lost . And there is some thing like stroke of this trauma that i suffer with .it occurs periodically at interval of some days. When it is at its peak. Iāve already lost many carrer opportunities.nd still getting sucked by it. Its not that i m not alive, obviously people have many responsibilities in life but the repurcursion of this trauma has been turning me to a numb,dead person and my life has no hopeā¦but iām so done with itā¦ I donāt know how to i fix myselfā¦but i cannot live this pathetic life where iām drowing more nd more into darkness!
Akanksha @anxious_kiwi
I hate to say thisā¦but psychotherapy might be the way out
Umar Farooque @farooq_21
Ya maybeā¦but thank u so much for taking out time to read my words
Umar Farooque @farooq_21
U r right, we do mistake not taking it cautiously when itās in early stageā¦actually i never thought that with passage of time itās gonna take over me so muchā¦nd now seems impossible for me to ever recoverā¦any way thanku so much for ur timeā¦
crazy_girl š @tasnim
U r really strong but donāt give up u r not depressed but u r really fastreted I understand bcoz sometimes I feel same things but u canāt give up stand up & pls fight for all bullāshit nd frustration but donāt give up remember one thing always chahe koi saath hoya na ho but allahmiya always there with u pls donāt loose your self trust your self & allahmiya too.š
Umar Farooque @farooq_21
Hey thanks a lot 4 ur kind wordsā¦u r right ultimately thereās one hope that keeps us aliveā¦
