I'm so tired. So exhausted. i have zero energy to work anymore. i dont care about the results anymore, i really want to but i cant at this point. i have no motive to keep moving forward. why am i so unbothered about the goal i was passionate about for which i left my everything? i'm just near to the end of this but im done at this point. i want to care about it . i want to keep moving forward but i just cant really. i have no energy, no fire like there used to be it just feels that im just existing. yhis is very exhausting.

You're feeling exhausted and unmotivated, struggling to find the energy to keep moving forward. It's important to prioritize your well-being and seek support from loved ones or professionals during this challenging time.

Hey there! I totally feel you, just take a few days to be kind to yourself, watch your favourite shows, do skin care, embrace your good qualities, and talk to your loved ones, and meditate as well, trust me you'll be fine!! It will all help you, all the best ❤️

Career

Heyy all,

It's Aman this side. I'm here looking for a partner to conversate with in English on routine basis to improve the fluency. Anyone wants to be in, feel free to message me. 
Thank You😊

Colleague

Anyone else have major anger issues and instead of being mad at others or violent towards others you take it all out on yourself ? My legs are full of cuts and bruises from hitting myself. 

Anger Issues

i am in big trouble. As my mother cousin brother is not taking care of her wife.she needs satisfactions, she is not getting that.she is coming near me crying and huging me to satisfy all needs.i am helpless .she is in love with my and she is my mami .i am 21 and she 35 the age difference is too much she is aking for bad things what to do

This week and month a lot of education-related results will be declared and I know a lot of you will not be in the best of moods.
For all of them who feel you have lost and it's all over,
I don't know if it helps, but I can relate with you and trust me it's not the end and you haven't lost. 

Here's my story.

I was a very good student till my 12th and was primed to do my Engineering from one of the top colleges in India.
I appeared JEE in 2013, I failed and I could not get through. I took a year off and prepared again. I had given it my all this time. I qualified for JEE advanced, however, I could not get through and my dream that time of becoming an IITian came crashing down. I got admitted to one of the leading NIT's instead and started my Mechanical Engineering course. Even though not IIT, but I was living my dream. However 3 months into the first semester, my Dad had a stroke (he almost died )and I had to back home to support him and the family(I lived in another state). Almost a year passed until my Dad could walk again. However, the mental fatigue and emotional toll as a 19-year-old were too much for me to concentrate on anything. My heart gave up on engineering and I dropped out. 

I took another year off. And I got myself applied to another college to pursue B.Sc. However, the toll of me leaving engineering, seeing my Dad almost die and unable to settle and concentrate made my life unbearable. To escape reality I got addicted to drugs and alcohol. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to study as I felt I was not made for this rat race. And I dropped out again after my 3rd Sem exams. 

My girlfriend left me. My friends left me (except one, who till this day is my best friend). Everyone called me a lost cause. And I was doomed. 

However, after months of soul searching and help from the people who still loved me, I was able to recover from my drug abuse and go on a path of self-improvement. 

I didn't graduate. I decided that I won't be following this 19th-century education system and despite everything, everyone said I was gonna stand on my feet.

I moved to a new city. Rented a small 1 RK apartment, I read books, read online, watched youtube educational videos, learned to code online, worked at Starbucks as a waiter, interned at a startup for 5000 rupees a month. I did everything to make sure I learnt all the necessary skills in life. 

After months and months of rejections and failures and "Sorry, we can't hire you as you are not a graduate", I finally landed a job in the summer of 2017 as a Junior Program Analyst in a one-year-old startup. 

It's 2021. I still don't have a degree. I still am not an Engineer on paper. However, I am the Associate Director of Product in my Company (which is a Unicorn now btw). I live in a 3 BHK apartment with my 4 dogs and I drive my own car. 

I am 26 now. At 19 I thought my life was over. But in these 7 years, I have been through hell and back. And no, my life still isn't perfect. I still deal with issues, my recent heartbreak and a lot more. 

My point here is that as a 16,17,18,19 or whichever age you are, it's not the end of the world. Trust me. It's just the start. Life will kick you. And kick you hard. It's about how hard you get up every time. 

Hope

Anyone from Delhi Ncr

Friends

So i feel like i lost a friend of mine for whom i genuinely cares from the heart and i talked to her freely i wanted someone with whom I can talk freely and i found her and then boom i lost her because of some misunderstanding and all i feel bad for this 😢 

Adulting

Living with Anxiety Disorder:
Living with anxiety disorder can be challenging, but it’s important to know that recovery is possible. Some lifestyle changes that can help manage anxiety disorder include:

1.Regular exercise
2.Healthy diet
3.Adequate sleep
4.Stress reduction techniques

Therapy options for anxiety disorder include:
1.Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT)
2.Exposure therapy
3.Mindfulness-based therapy
In some cases, medication may also be prescribed to manage anxiety disorder.

Anxiety

12th Jan 2020

 
Hey, so I am currently a high school student suffering from a load of pressure, as with A-levels coming up, it feels like the world has its eyes on me, everyone has different expectations for you, and I am scared of not being able to live up to the expectations with befall on me. I understand that this is a stage everyone goes through, but am suffering from anxiety and depressive symptoms. So, wrote the thing below to vent. Please do take the time to read it, as it would mean the world to me, and please leave comments on whether you personally or someone you know also has a problem like mine, as I want to find different ways to cope.
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The solution to a problem will always be accepting that there is one, then working towards fixing it, whether it be step by step, leap by leap, or being guided all throughout the process. - J
 
What is life? What is the purpose of life? To succeed? To love? To develop as a person in mind, body and soul? These are the questions I keep asking myself every minute of the day. Will I be happy if I manage to be successful, find love and be rich? I think not. There has to be a deeper meaning to it all, to life, to love, to happiness. There has to be a reason I was born, do I have a purpose to fulfil? A role to play? Or am I just another chess piece, restricted by my shape, size, ethnicity, while waiting for it all to end, for the sweet nothingness when death comes to take me. Will I be able to be to live up to the expectations of everyone around me, become something I’m not, do things I’ve only ever dreamed of doing, or will I take the wheel and steer my fate with my own hands, and not let all the misfortune and mishappens weigh me down, let the world define who I am. No. To that, I say “fuck you world, and everything that is expected of me, I am who I am, and if you’re not happy with that, fuck you too. And to fear, fuck you too. Tomorrow you could be walking home from work or school, and a bus could hit you, ending it all”.Death. A state of nothingness, the eternal sleep, or the everlasting winter as mentioned by some. Oh, the sweet nothingness, how nice it must be, no not have worries, problems or expectations to weigh you down under the immense pressure, and slowly crush every single bone in your body, while mutilating your soul, so even in death, there won’t be peace. Oh how I long for that state of nothingness, the eternal sleep, the everlasting winter or whatever it may be, how nice it must be to not have a care in the world, to have no regrets and awkward situations. But what if death is only the starting line to life, as with death comes life, and with life comes death. As to live, one must die to be born again in body, mind and soul. What if the universe was made for you, but you just don’t know it, as though the process of dying and living, one gains experiences, and when the time comes, one will understand it all, and become another entity as a whole - “GOD”.“GOD”. An omnipotent, omniscient, omnibenevolent being who made the universe and all life as we know it, who sacrificed his only son Jesus to wash away the sin of man. But what if God isn’t real, but just a figment of our imagination. A way to escape reality, a way to answer the unanswerable, a method to stay optimistic, a person who will love you no matter what will forgive as long as one repents, knows everything and makes the supernatural, natural, creates miracles for some and sends signs to others to do his bidding. Well, to me it just sounds fictitious and frankly, I just don’t believe that can be the case. As the argument that the universe cane to through a huge explosion which is come to be known as the ‘big bang’ is more prominent, and easier to believe, as there are facts and figures to back the theory. But recently, even though I said that I don’t believe in this so-called God. As in these dark times of my life, the period when all seems hopeless when nothing seems to be working, I think I partly understand why people turn to this imaginary being, this all-powerful being to help, and pray. It gives someone an outlet to express how they truly feel, how they have considered ending it all, how they just don’t know what to do. They feel shit, feel like they’ve hit rock bottom, if not, close to hitting it. And yet somehow a single confession every night helps relieve the pent up stress and pressure, clearing a load off the chest, even if just for a second. Yet in that brief second, one feels like they can breathe again, feels like they can live again, and have a more optimistic outlook at life. Maybe that’s why people pray to him, to God, as they feel reassured that whatever told to him, won’t get told to anyone. A form of stress relief, an outlet for pain, anger and sorrow, a therapist if you will, but one that doesn’t comfort you or give you ways to cope with the problem, but instead acknowledges you for who you are and doesn’t discriminate or judge, as like the bible says, man was made in the image of God. So god all in one and one in all, he represents everyone and we represent him. It shows that not everyone is perfect, not even god himself. So how are we supposed to be perfect if god isn’t? So, is the purpose of life to find perfection in imperfection, to find the missing piece to our puzzle, to make us whole, complete, ‘perfect’ in the eyes of our own as well as in the eyes of those around us.Perfection. Why is everybody obsessed with being perfect when everybody is special in their way? When everyone’s individuality is what makes them unique, what makes them who they are. Maybe that’s why people want to be perfect, or at least be perceived as perfect in the eyes of their peers. But some say perfection is in the eye of the beholder, but I say that perfection is found in symmetry, as if something looks symmetrical, it’s therefore aesthetically pleasing to look at, and so, perfect. But what if perfection isn’t found in symmetry or the eye of the beholder, but the heart of the individual, as we are attracted to people who perceive matter, form or beliefs just as we do, so making them perfect for us, like jigsaw pieces made to fit together, everyone has someone they were made for, someone with the same wavelength as them, someone they can resonate with and relate to. But what if we never find that person, or never have the opportunity to meet them? What then? To that I say, don’t worry. Destiny and fate will guide you together, just like they have for many others since the beginning of time.Self-obsession, narcissism, egotism. The story of Narcissus perfectly sets a precedent of the consequences which befall those who only have eyes for themselves, believes that the world revolves around them, believes that they are the pinnacle of mankind - the best, the ‘alpha’ or ‘apex’. Some may believe that it’s alright to be narcissistic to a certain extent, as long as it doesn’t hurt the people around you, and that at the end of the day, it’s just ‘egotistical individualism’. But I say no matter the extent to which the narcissistic characteristics manifest themselves in a person, it will always come with a price. Whether it be the shunning of those around you, or hurting those closest to you, one will always come to regret and remorse.
 


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