Im rarely at peace with my body. I keep looking at myself , touching parts i would like to change , fat I would like to get rid off, fat I would like to have. It gets exhausting , all this over-thinking just leaves me tires.

Hey, I would just like to say that you are so brave for writing all this so openely.I am sure a lot of people can relate to it. However, I do believe the issue needs intervening from either a doctor or anyone you trust with this and generous dose of self love. Remember, beauty or worth isnt skin deep. They dont make you beautiful. You and your body are worthy just because you are. I hope you try connecting to your physical vessel by affirmations, healthy eating, exercise etc. One of my favourite creators Olanikeeosi is on instagram as well as youtube. She has podcasts etc that may be of help to you.I hope you check them out and give yourself a break:)

Mental Health


“Friendships between women, as any woman will tell you, are built of a thousand small kindnesses... swapped back and forth and over again.”

Happy

Basically I'm going through mental torture kinda stuff by people living around me ..so I need immediate help 🥺🥺my cats aren't in the state to be anymore with me..n I am unable to find adoption center for them.. anyone who's interested in helping me out??I'm from MUMBAI

COVID HELP

This happiness killing me.
I can't chill all the time. It makes me suffocated inside. I can't afford to risk it all. Yet i just kill time and pretends to be ok. 

Anxiety

In vacation i went to my nanny home, everything was working fine in my life. But there was a guy who used to followed me, chasing me. Firstly i thought its my superstitious. After all this i came back to my home on the same day the boy followed me till I haven’t catch a bus. After a month i went again to see my nanny But one day the guy come in front of me and purpose me, i simply said no to him, but he did not agree and said at least we can be friends, so i agree and we become friend. So we started chating and talking. I used to talk to him over the phone. After 10 days i completely stoped talking to him because i was failed in unit and my parents took my phone. But the boy had my friend number so he contact to him and she said my friend told him that his pairents know about you and she doesn’t have a felling about you as feel why she talk to you. On the same day the boy took a knife and write my name on his arm and he went to hospital. When i come to know about this i call him from my friend phone and ask why are you doing this so he said i love you and I can’t live without you, but I simply told him i dont have a feeling for you and I can’t be in a relationship. But he assisted me to talk otherwise i will die. So i agree because i was scared. So again we stated talking using my friend mobile because i dont have any phone. I one day i frustrated all about this and told him i don’t want this anymore more and leave me. Again the boy did the same writeing my name with knife and went to hospital. His brother call me saying i will kill you if something happen to my brother. He said you have to do this whatever he say to you. I was so struk in this situation and even I can’t talk to my parents about this, beacuse they gonna kill me. So I decided i will stay with him and he supply me phone and sim card. Everything went good for 3 months, meanwhile i cried alot and i have a question why this is happening to me ? But one day my cousin come to my home , she is very spiritual and we was talking about spirituality, I don’t know what happen to me on that day I decided i will not let this happen to me and broke the phone. And we came into completely stopped. When the boy came to know he took poision and went to icu. He was there for around 15 days i used to pray god for him beacuse this is happening beacuse of me. He discharged from the hospital and was fine, but he regularly come to my college and follow me but i keep ignoring him. I have a segrated felling for him, maybe i was in love or this was just sympathy, i am still confused please tell me?? After 5-6 days my father give back my phone and call him and decided that i will be do whatever i can to make him happy until my parents know about him. This was in January and we celebrated valentines week as well. But in march my parents come to know they catch me. They treated me very badly and even the boy now abuse me everyday over the Instagram. But i am still confused whether it was love which i did or fulish job

Confusion

I fear losing people I love and I always end up losing them..
Idk how to overcome it..!

At times like this I can't help but to ask myself, 'Why do I do this'. Because I know eventually I'll get tired of talking to this person. I'll saw something that would make me no-go. It's a cycle. The only thing I hold on is that, it might be God's way of saving me, helping me get through September, making sure I have somebody walking side-by-side the broken bridge. I know, I'll get rid of him soon. But I hope we still be good friends. We're teammates. Anddddd I think it'll last until we meet again. That's the closure I'm sure of. It's always like that. We look forward to seeing the ending. 

Relationships

1 year of being absolutely alone.
No friend, no family, no one but me in this room….this house.
And because of covid19, I can’t even go out to see new people…can’t find a new friend. And even if I try to use APP, I will just find people who just want to hook up….
I’m not a talker, I mostly like to listen to everyone around me.
I just want to sit with someone in silence and know that they will be here for me, just need some hug, a little say “Hi” for a day.
Just someone who says I understand you, I don’t judge you, I’ll be here with you.
But….there is no one…..
I am absolutely alone.
(All I can do is watch Netflix, use the sound of people on Youtube to befriend with me…. I start to dream about talking to friends and people when I sleep, just to wake up and know I’m still alone here all alone…..How sad is this, hahahah….)

Hey 
I am not feeling okay. My stepfather sexually abuses me everyday and i cant do anything I just done know what should i do whom should i reach to i just cant take it anymore Everyday i tell myself tomorrow will be okay it will be better but its just the same i just donw know what should i do mu mother knows she keeps quiet.

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