I’m literally dying. I can’t help things. Everything is so overwhelming. Idk what to do. I hurt myself today, I’m too scared, but I sort of fell calm and relaxed after those cuts. I really for the moment forgot any pain inside, and just focused on the outside. Even after smoking, I do not feel nice. I feel as if I’m just alone, I want to runnn away somewhere, or most importantly, I want to die. I really am fed up now, I can’t do this anymore. It’s tooo tough. Whom should I share this with, whom should I talk to. No one gets me, I don’t want to talk to anyone most importantly.
Simran @st1199
Hey!
Take deep breaths (as you read this) and calm yourself down. I am here to listen and others too want to listen and help you out.
What’s holding you back? Just write out everything you are feeling right now and vent out, you’ll feel light. Trust me, do it! 🌼
I just can’t vent out. I don’t know what’s wrong with me or where am I going wrong. 5 continuous years of therapy and medications, and still I feel the same, maybe worse. I don’t understand what is going on, I really want to end this battle, this battle which is going on in my mind, which cigarette also can’t calm down anymore, there is something which is missing, some hollow piece which I can’t find. Nor can anyone else. It’s very frustrating and some times guilty as well, that I’m wasting my life, I can’t do anything, why am I behaving like this, why does this storm come, why do I feel as if I’m submerged under the water. And I can’t hear or see properly.
Simran @st1199
Do you think you should try a different therapist then?
Also, please don’t cut yourself, it will not make you any better even if you think it is for a short duration. There are possibilities that smoking, weed, drugs, etc lead to mental health problems in the long run and maybe it is affecting you with whatever you are consuming?
Are you totally honest with your therapist in terms of self-harm and smoking?
I feel you dude ! I have similar issues going on . I would add I had kinda depressive tendency since a long time . I also feel hollow inside . My therapy just started this year , till now no success . I feel like my therapist isn’t trying to understand what’s actually wrong with me . I haven’t told him everything as I don’t feel comfortable around him , is it the matter with you too ?
Hey don’t feel like that, if you want to share something or whenever you feel alone just connect to me in this number “8280674728”. I can be your best buddy without any judgement.
