Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’m a 17 year old student and there’s a secret which is hidden deep inside me, which no one knows except me because I hope you know this how people are.
I don’t want to carry this bad thing to my grave so this will be the first and last time i will speak this!
There’s total of 3 times this thing happened with me!
First when i was in 4th standard I faced bad touch by my hindi teacher in a christian school who used to say that i was his favorite student because i was always sincere in my studies…i didn’t tell my mom at that time because i thought I’ll overcome it somehow and hopefully i did.
The second time i faced bad touch by someone i knew in a festival and when i was in my 7th standard i was about to get harrassed but I somehow fought with that person and threatened him that I’ll tell everyone about what he was tryin’ to do with me and to be true I was literally scared.
After that I promised myself that even when i grow up I’m not gonna go near to any guy.
And you know what this is what i still follow, I’m somewhat introverted type of person and my parents already have so many things to worry about and in the thought of not giving them any of my extra worries i never told them this and i don’t even have courage to tell them this even today!
Now to due to my childhood fear I can’t watch real violence and all because due to that I feel like I’m drowning into fear in my mind which makes me super uncomfortable.
But today I’m happy that someone else other than me know this…Thank you so much for providing me your ear and time ^_^
Thanking you from bottom of my heart <3