riya charles @bitterbutbet...
I’m a 17 will be turning 18 next month.
I think I’m suffering from mild depression I guess ,
I have rapid mood swings 😒 and also do overthinking which make me tired.
I get angry 😠 when things don’t go my way because I expect too much I guess and also get angry on small things and make a issue out of it and I dont know what’s wrong with me.
I even had some anger outbursts in the past and hurt my loved ones 💔. I feel like such a bad person now. My mommy said why can’t u be happy look at other kids they’re so happy how can I tell her that I’m trying but can’t, I tried but failed.
I don’t even care about other people feelings can’t see with their point of view even if i want to… i don’t want to get out of bed sometimes and don’t feel like taking a bath , I don’t feel like learning new things which I used to love , I have no interest in those things which I love.
Due to my behavioral difficulties affecting my friendship as I have little fun , I get upset over little things and throw emotional and anger tantrums , so I decided to take a mental health self assessment to address my issue , it’s not a diagnosis but just a self assessment the result showed I have some emotional behavioural difficulties.
These are affecting my relationship and I can’t get therapy because my parents won’t understand rather turn it into a lecture which will make me more angry and I don’t have money for that so I’m writing to u to help me.
Because of mild depression I had trouble in my final exams and even trouble concentration on my studies its like I want to study but just can’t , I want to get out of bed and study late night but can’t.
I’m having thoughts of suicide 😕 and I feel guilty and a person deserve to be punished.
I’m getting angry and annoyed over little things and do overthinking and I don’t know how to cope with it.
