I wish to slap somebody because of something that happened 3 years back, that one incident changed my life, I lost the ability to trust, I lost my first love, I lost the ability to love again or be romantic and now when I saw my first love again after years, he actually came to my house and my mother loved him, now when things can’t go back to normal, I am hating it. I hate the person who ruined everything. I wish to slap her tight in front of all of our family members. I fight everyday with my mother for silliest things, she has a habit of teasing me and I know that but those things are now just irritating me. I can’t sleep, I can’t laugh, I am losing focus on work and I wish to slap somebody, I would have punched a punching bag but that won’t work. mentally I am heading towards self injury, which is not right. Someone please tell me what to do?