I will not get upset over petty reasons like him not coming it's okay and I completely understand. Everyone deserves rest. Whereas on the other issue. Him losing touch and i not contacting either ways the right thing to do. Sometimes u need to understand that passion is something else and love is different. I really love my bf and this was just an attraction, mere brain trying to get something that you can't. Seems attractive but ik the moment I jump into the pool it will unload with it a lot of problems and i do not want to create problems for myself. Maybe I did the wrong thing on letting passion go away because of comfort and love but i don't want to regret it later. I do not even know this guy properly. its been few months since we've started talking , i am getting attracted but maybe coz he suddenly pulled away and stopped talking which was the right thing to do since I have a bf . It bothers me. Bothers me a lot I want to talk to him but what's the use ? It's a mere attraction will go away in some time . 

Confusion

I'm actually going to talk to a guy for arranged marriage. I really am not ready for a marriage plus i don't want to marry him. Even though he's meeting my parents requirements he's not matching mine. How can I convince my parents this without being direct? How to deny the proposal without offending both the parties. 😅

Marriage

Im sorta scared im gonna be judged for this, so im going annonymous. Im dating this boy, I have known him for 4 years, he dated one of my old friends from when she lived in vegas which is where they met and now they both live in my state, he lives a while away tho. we have never met in person, but weve facetimed, texted, called for that amount of time. we barley ever talk tho, he never answers my calls anymore, we have liked eachother on and off for a few yrs but finally started dating so idk.. hes pretty toxic but we have a good connection and ive known him forever. i feel silly. im 15, hes 15 too. 

Relationships

I feel so deeply when i  feel things changing
My boyfriend started his new venture and is busy with it just too much
But now even when he is free he does’nt ask me out
Whenever i call him his phone is always busy 
And when we do talk someone interupts and he puts me on hold
This was never the case before
We havent met in 15 days now 
And by next month we will be in LDR
He used to care so much!
Earlier-Ki chal ho gaye 5 din ab bhej denge bahar 
Milte hai 
He tells ki yeh kaam hai aaj bla bla isliye then i dont ask him to meet so that he can focus on work
I completely understand and support his business with my whole heart but when
He has time to hangout with friends
Chill and have dinner with partners
Chat with people
While doing his work then?
He doesnt think of me ? Or miss me now
Earlier he used to love me more
I want to be okay with this
I dont know how 
I miss him even when he is here
Help me to be calm and okay with this


3am Thoughts

i wanna share something …and that is about my relationship . So we broke up a week ago just because I was more involved in this relationship and i wanted to focus on myself , he never cared about me and he didn’t even had feelings for me …so we broke up …after that , the next day  we were like so quite and not talking to each other …a few days passed and he started behaving like suddenly he cares a lot …when we were in relationship he never texted me …i was the one who texted first and now after breakup he text me almost every second day for random things like how much I have studied , am i coming next day to class , etc etc …after classes he asks me to wait for him so that we can go home together , in classes he saves seat for me and ask me to sit next to him …like why man …now what you want …if he’s like to be friends with me then this is not a friendship but i think it’s going beyond that …and on Monday what happened was that we were walking together to the bus stop and laughing at random things , it was so different that day that I can’t explain in words …it was like we both were in crowd but nobody was there …we were walking , he was like - walk slowly , we’ll sit somewhere and talk for a while …you know i am a kind of person who have nothing to share and he was also like that but nowadays he’s like sharing everything with me , each and every small thing which he never used to do …so i was talking about that day …then we reached the bus stop and he was saying something about hands i don’t remember exactly but after that he was holding my hand and we both were in public but still holding hands , for the first time he was not afraid to hold my hand in public otherwise he never did this before …it was so romantic , we were looking into each other’s eyes , laughing at anything , holding hands and his bus came but he said that you’ll be alone so I’ll go in next bus …he was actually behaving so nice that I’m confused what he wants now …and after that day when we met he called me before meeting that he’s waiting for me, for the class and then we were walking on the road i was walking like I don’t care about anything and he said nothing but he himself started walking on the side of the road and got me to the other side …he was like so protective that time …idk what’s this happening …why is he behaving like this after breakup …when we were in relationship then he never cared and now …Idk what should I do …what’s this happening idk …why it’s happening idk …

Breakup

My boyfriend is very confusing. He rejected me and and wants me as his friend. And he is very okay without me in his life. And he says he never loved me and again comes and says he loves me. This loop repeated around 4-5 times over 4 months. And thus time he completely ignored me from his thing. but I'm going back to him again and again since he is the only one i have in my current life. What is he even thinking about me ..does he want me or not ? But he said he is not ready for relationship and marriage after saying that he would marry me surely for 8 months now !

I was not sure of the relationship im in .
But in the Beginning he cared and showed his liking towards me .
But now things have changed he is always busy ... 
Does not reply to my text n calls 

Its seems like he is not interested ...
I don't know why but it feels like weird n unloving ...


I really don't know what to do !!!


Conflict

Hello i am in relationship with my boyfriend since 6 years and recently my parents came to know about our relationship and my parents are not accepting him he is too good and i am sure he will look after me as my parents are taking care of me now they are comparing with status he only has mom his dad died when he was 3 he is working hard to get a job and to lead happy life.....in this circumstances i am getting stressed don't know what to do 😭

I came into relationship 6 months ago,we were bestfriends for 2 yrs  after coming he changed his words that he cant have a future because his family doent allow intercaste relatiobships...but instead of leaving i try to understand him but now he doesnt give me time just texts me takes update, meets me twice a week... ik thats enough but he ignores me when i text him always...he never calls me anymore..hes alot changed than he was before, i dont want to leave him even he doesnt see me as same like before i just want to be beside him and love him as i promise But i hate getting hurt, i hate the thought that he Il marry someone else other than me and she ll have him , i hate the thing that he doesnt give me same efforts anymore...everything is changed...

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