Kavya Ganesh @kavyaganesh
TRIGGER WARNING
I relate to you. I started self harming in the middle of class 11, September 2017, and it went on till May 2018. I was in an extremely suffocated environment in my 11th and 12th. Most people, when they hear about this time period, they think “Oh it was just exam stress, why would you be so dramatic about that?”. To be honest, it doesn’t matter what was going on. It could’ve been the exam pressure, it could’ve been family issues, it could’ve been a toxic relationship(s), or like me, it could’ve been all of them. Self harm, I’ve come to understand, starts when you would rather take the physical pain than the emotional one. Every time I came across an incredibly difficult moment, I would cut myself just to numb my body with the physical pain. Sounds ironic, but that’s how my mind worked at that time. For a few minutes, I could escape from that suffocation, and ONLY focus on that cut.
It’s been more than a year since I stopped, but the physical scars on my thighs still stay a reminder of that horrible time. But you know what, the pain never stayed. During that one year, from May 2018 to May 2019, I was in therapy. My therapist helped me figure out the underlying reasons for my inability to cope with the various stressors around me. Through therapy, I realised that I shouldn’t hurt and destroy myself for the actions of other people. It takes time to realise that you do not deserve the pain, but I eventually did.
I hope you do too :))
It’s so sad seeing that such young people are getting into self harm. I hope you’re okay now, though.
Afreen @afreen
Exactly self harm is not only due to one reason when a couple of things pile on within ourselves we take this.
This is when we cannot take physical,emotional,environment stress anymore and it leads to a burnout
Gaurvi Narang @gaurvinaran...
Thanks for sharing! I hope you have recovered from it now.
