Akash Dalal @skybroker
i fucking have 2 personality in me.
the one is totally negative person, a totally dull and annoying piece of shit who is fearful afraid of being neglected.
but when i talk to someone i always talk positive with them. emphaty them. encourage them. give them a sense of being that i m here for you wearas i m not for myself.
i totally change other people perspective when i m talking with them but in reality of my own i m too negative about myself every single moment i think i m gonna get something terrible to myself.
but when someone talks to be i m a fucking motivator and hopeful person for others…
what a fucking person i am that i don’t know who is me. this is eating me from inside…
Hello friend!
I’m exactly like you. I’m quite wise and I always help everyone in any way I can. I’m overly positive with people sometimes because I think they just need it in their life. But I can’t take my own advice, I can’t change my perspective of myself or my life. The reality is that happiness is something that is manifested inside. No one can bring it out of you but yourself. Start making yourself your number one priority. Every day until you’re where you want to be. I know how hard this can be. I certainly haven’t gotten there because I’m still full of such self hatred. But I know I just need to hold on and work for myself. It may be the hardest thing I’ve had to do in my lifetime but I know it’ll be worth it. Good luck and much love ❤️
Akash Dalal @skybroker
i understand you. but we don’t do it because we neglecte it for the most time…
and then regret it for the fucking thing i did for myself with my career, my relationship, and now it is harming my sub conscious mind and health too… i might not be able to take toll for long. i think i will collapse. i think that time i will be in peace for rest of life
Omg I am the same way. I have been counseling people since i was in middle school and everyone keeps telling me that i should be a therapist because I give such great advice and am a good listener. But its like damn I am so fucked up myself. I don’t understand how I can be so fucked and really help others at the same time smh. We need to help ourselves as much as we help others. You should talk to a therapist to help you out. I’m also here if you’d like to talk.
Akash Dalal @skybroker
yeah. i want to but online session doesn’t help much to me.
i have also been fucked up my career due to my irresponsibility towards myself… i m now trying but it is so fucking hard to move myself…
I understand. It can be hard to motivate yourself. And yeah online sessions dont really help me either. But I believe youll get better. Youll be able to get yourself back on track.
Akash Dalal @skybroker
thanks toya for listening to me.
how are you doing?
Of course Im always hear to listen to people (: Im doing better than usual. How about yourself? Feeling any better ?
Akash Dalal @skybroker
yes. toya. i m feeling better.
how are you doing feeling any better?
Honestly I was feeling better til last night. I feel like shit again lol