I lost my uncle to COVID19 today. I have been distracting myself the entire day. I don’t exactly know how to process the loss. My first reaction has been extreme anger. I’m just so mad at the world that people aren’t taking it seriously. I understand not everyone is privileged enough but shouldn’t risk aversion be the capital decision making pricipal binding our everyday action? Then I felt bad for being mad and it made me feel like I was being cruel in being overly critical. I want to cry and mourn him, but I’m very afraid if I let it out I might be too broken to be fixed again, so I have to hold it all in and let it pass. Please help me.