I just wanna fuckibg die. I want ro fuckjbg die every single day if it is not just for my family. I surely am not typibg this. It is so messed up here. I just wanna run away from here. From everyone. I want to fucking find myself. I want to just kill myself. Everyone is fucking against me. For the first time in my life, even though I have a family, I have friends. I have everything within me. I felt so empty. I don’t even have a place to call home. I just want to fucking disappear. But will it be enough to take away all the pain I am feeling inside? I am fucking ill inside. No one notice because no one cares. Even if someone noticed? They just call me crazy without knowing the whole story. Just so fuck up. I hate telling lies but I gotta cover up all of this pain that I am feeling. I hate everyone.
im here for you buddy if you wanna elaborate and talk about it . id listen to the whole thing . im all ears
I actually don’t know what to do. My mind is a mess. And I must so easy to get angry so I often let my anger out on my innocent cousins who just only wanted to talk to me. And I feel like I anger management paranoid too because I feel like they are always talking bad about me behind my back that’s why. And I feel like that they always left me out and you know everything. And I always feel so ad about it. Like whenever I see them I don’t know how to approach them or get along with them. That’s why whenever I vent out my feeling to my parents they always say that I don’t have to overthink it that much. Buthe even though I feel like I am right but why do I feel like I am badmouthing them. Am I crazy? I don’t know what to do.
