I just feel like I'm getting a little too dependent on my guy and I don't know what to do. Wanting to talk to him always n stuff. I'm always at home is that the reason?

I've been thru that . I can feel you to some extent . And it's okay to feel that way , sometimes it feels like you are losing yourself and all you do is to think about him . Want his attention etc etc . But I guess it's okay if you know that the person you have in your mind is worth it , if not then you needa be concious . You being at home maybe a reason to it , if you sit idol and alone , maybe try to invest your time and mind doing things you like or just go out for long drives or walk or take yourself on dates . Just treat yourself and I think you'll se a change. 

Yes this is the reason but wanting to talk is not bad 
So instead of getting hurt and disturb him just fix some time and talk properly and clearly
It will also decrease your number of fights

Long Distance Relationship

Which contry you like to visit

Travel

Guys I recently met a person he is a good friend of mine now
So wen he told me about his story I was shocked he lost his mom bcoz of blood cancer now he and his younger brother along with his Father is somehow surviving all three are male and this way family is highly disfunctioned no one knows to cooks they either eat out or don't eat at all 😓😭😭my frnd he doesn't sleep he comes to work after being awake whole night does 10 hrs shift goes back home with no hopes 
My frnd and his dad they are into bad habits of smoking and drinking 
Any suggestions on how Dey can function properly bcoz I m worried for all three about their health 
He says mummy hoti toh ye karti vo karti sahi galat batane wali chali gayi 🥺

3am Thoughts

Need some Advice for Chikungunya .? Can anyone help me out

Hii guys,
I really want to complete my series.....on Netflix......and my sub has just ended.....pls koi bhala insaan ho

Crush

How can I stop someone from leaving me even though i hurted them but i regret it sooo muchh. How can I stop my life from going away from me? How can i save my love?

Failure

I'm a guy who don't want to go in a relationship till i became totally independent and my university takes all my time and i am afraid to get in to a relationship and get drained and it will leave me heart broken.
I think the best choise is to wait till I finish my uni and be financially stable so i can provide cuz i want a real relationship not to enjoy myself or something.
The problem is that I'm a medical student and i will finish my uni and be come independent by 30 and that's too much tbh😂.
And getting a gf is super easy for me I'm handsome and my female best friend always tell me about girls that have crush on me and i rejected many girls not because I'm cool ar something just because i know we might broke each other.
It's a long story 😂
What do y'all think i should do ?
Or give ma an advice.


Confusion

Trust me man I been with a girl for a year. And when I’m hurt or down she’s never ever tried to make me feel better. She fights me about something that happens in the past and blames not caring in what I did. When she’s sick or feeling down I always compliment her make her feel better tell her how pretty she is and stay in the phone with her until she leaves the hospital when she’s hurt for 8-9 hours. She has many friends and family here. I have no one my family lives abroad and I have one friend who comes around when he needs something and a brother that could see me dead and not even look at me because he has his own life. Sometimes I honestly get jealous when people have dinners with there family and cry in my room. I’m a grown man a lot of people respect me and fear me. And I have no one to talk to. Sometimes I lie to my self and act like she cares and she full out tells me I dgaf how you feel. I don’t know if it’s better to lie to my self just the thought of having someone that cares is better then having no one that cares and she even makes me lying to my self harder for me. And when I tell her how I feel she tells
Me what you think I’m going to feel sorry for you and I’m not looking for someone to give me sympathy or anything I just want her to act like she cares but even that’s hard for her. I spend a lot of money on her she more educated then me always calls me retard waste your not on my level to the point I actually feel low about my self and it’s starting to effect me. But I still love her I’m not perfect I’m far from perfect I’m a recovered drug addict two years clean and I was addicted to pain killers. I’ve always had money so I never stole from anyone or anything. I always supported my habbit I was functional and she always reminds me how she’s better and she could do better and how her x didn’t do drugs like I did. But I’m better looking and have more money then her x. I spoil her but her everything and he cheated on her. She’s 8 years younger. I’m 32 she’s 24 she went to university I went to college she always says she’s smarter and always belittles me. Always blocks me and unblocks me. And when we’re in bed she always says sorry and how much she loves me and needs me and can’t live without me. I lied to her so we could spend some time together told her a hotel was not refundable so she could come and she called me a liar a waste a crackhead I’m gross turn off and much more to the point I actually felt like dying and cried and I didn’t lie to get out of anything I know she’s busy but I miss her and wanted to spend time with her she’s the only person I have and I love her. I lied because I wanted to spend time with her and she always acts like she’s not home to make me suspicious and it’s destroying me emotionally and mentally but I’m so in love with with her the thought of losing her makes me want to kill my self. I honestly don’t know maybe I’m ugly or not educated enough or on her level but I try to make up with it with buying her things and spoiling her. All I want in return is small things like did u eat baby or y do u look upset. I fix her car take her on vacations shopping buy her gold  always pay for her and her friends and her friends boyfriends won’t even buy her a coffee and she respects them more then me.  I feel like garbage maybe I am I don’t know I’m not perfect I threw a sandwich in her face one time because she accused me of cheating which was so wrong I apologized a million times bought her so much things but it’s because I keep storing things in Everytime I tell her how I feel she twist everything and makes it about her. I don’t know what to do she actually treats me like trash and I feel worthless I was really confident always had an ego nice cars high self esteem. Since I got with her I feel like I’m nothing but a loser and she always says u will never change ur a lost cause the more I hang out with u the more turned off I am and I’m already hurt and having a bad day then she adds that on to it. Maybe I deserve it I don’t know y I live her so much how her hair smells how she looks how smart and clean she is. Sometimes I feel she puts me down to control me or she might actually just hate my guts breaks up with me 50 times a day. In her eyes every one is better then me I’m the biggest waste. She makes me insecure about how I dress my toe nails she will call me out infront of people or say something infront of my friends or agree with people going against me. I honestly feel like I have nobody and I am nobody and Sayjng this really took a load off my chest and there’s so much more I just have no one to talk to. And when I tell her how I feel she thinks I’m expect sympathy so I’m just going to shut my crack head waste mouth and try this I don’t want to make her look more down on me and give her more things to talk smack about and I do love her maybe it’s not her jib to make me feel better maybe I’m weird or a loser I don’t know I just want to say how I feel and not be judged and she’s my love my best friend and my family but I guess I’m not good enough for her and she knows she’s going to throw me so she doesn’t care to hear it. 


honestly i think i always knew our relationship wouldn’t work so us being apart is for the best but i’d be lying if i said it didn’t hurt to watch you move on. 

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