I just completed my 12th don’t know what is next or what I am gonna do. I really don’t have a plan. Things have been pretty devastated for the past 2 years. I had gone through enough trauma and stress to kill myself but I didn’t because I always had that thought of my mom in the corner of my brain.
I do love writing and computers but haven’t said it enough lately because I thought I will look geeky in front of others. Later I do realized it doesn’t matter what they say.
Honestly speaking I am too uncertain or afraid about my future. Maybe because it also effects my family. If I was alone by myself I would rather wander here and there to do something big then settling down and having what so called safe future.
I really didn’t enjoy my teenage days and now that is gone I do regret but I am proud that I took the path that most of us don’t. I chose the harder thing to do rather than become what almost all Indians do doctors and engineers.
I hope I get what I want and die soon but live fully and with freedom. Not being scared as well.
We’re in the same situation my 12th exam got cancelled which I would have most likely failed and I’m getting all these phone calls and pressure from my parents to decide something for the future and I really don’t know what to do. It feels like the world will just explode the coming day.
I really like music, I play guitar most of the day and listen to songs and I would really love to build a future in that but my parents are not very supportive on that matter
Well…all I can do is wish you luck, I hope you have a bright future and don’t give up you’re not alone.
I hope we both don’t give up on ourselves and our dreams. I do believe it will get beter.
