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Anonymous

I haven’t seen my best friend and one of the most important people in my life in years and all because of covid. One of them lives now in another town, not too far from here but still because I’m busy with school, we both are, we can’t see each other often so we’ve only got to meet a few times in the past two years. I tried to get my mom to switch schools and move to the school they go to so we can be together but she refused to and i was never really able to tell her why this was very important to me, now we’ve both graduated and i feel like we’ve grown apart, I don’t want to lose them. The other one lives in the other side of the world, I was supposed to travel to see him on the summer of 2020 but the situation made it impossible, I thought this summer I’d finally be able to but I can’t, there’s still a 7-day quarantine in his country and I can’t afford it. I don’t know what to do anymore, i wasn’t even supposed to be living here, i feel like I’m stuck while everyone is continuing to live their life normally. Talking through a phone, being separated by a screen all the time, seeing each other’s faces but not being able to hug, it feels weird even tho I should be used to it by now. + he’s kind of going through some things rn and i hate not being able to be there for him . It’s been days since we last talked and I’m not taking their absence very well, I’m this close to booking a flight and flying to them with no plan. Would that be too crazy??? cuz I’m actually about to do it, I haven’t told him yet but I’ve been thinking about it.

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Anonymous

It’s okay to miss your friends and wanting to meet them. So sorry all this is happening to you.
See if you want to meet your friend check whether it’s feasible for you to do so take permission from parents … I mean since you want to travel so long.

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Anonymous

I think I could go, I’m already 18 and I’ve saved enough money to do so but very barely and I’d still have to ask my parents for help and they’d probably think I’ve gone mad but idk I’m ready to buy the tickets rn, maybe if i go to my parents had already bought tickets they’d be okay with it+ I’ve already travelled on my own before i think i’d be fine. I don’t know maybe it’s just that i’ve had a bad day today and im not very stable emotionally so this is an urge i’ve suddenly got, maybe i should think it through a bit more but I hate this city and i need to leave this place i’ve been locked in for the past 2/3 years, my worst years. There’s so much that has happened these past few years ever since covid become a thing, I won’t get into it but so many things got totally ruined for me when I was finally starting to be happy again, 2019 was literally one of the best years in my life 2020 came at the worst time possible and took what felt like everything away from me. Thanks for ur understanding<3 maybe I should think about it a bit more.

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Anonymous

I am sorry I almost missed the point that you might be feeling too many emotions which made you think of going to meet your friend. Exactly as you said think over it for some days. Then you’ll yourself understand if this is important to you that much.
Also you are 18 but still parents will be worried about making their child travel alone so far. You can keep your savings to yourself instead of travelling like I mean to say they can be helpful to you in many ways . Like self pampering or buying something of your wishlist or for your future studies.
I don’t know if I am making sense but I just hope you stay calm think over it and take care of yourself.

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Anonymous

Yes ur right and thank you so much for taking the time to read and understand my situation <3 I was about to buy the plane tickets yesterday but thankfully I didn’t bc I thought it would be a very rushed decision to make. I still think i should do something about this and im planning to however maybe some other time when things are a bit better. My only problem is never knowing when that time will come, but hopefully soon. I talked to my parents and they promised to help me leave next year as soon as possible, I’ll wait for now. If i only had to worry about me knowing myself I would not wait, i would’ve just bought those tickets however my parents wouldn’t like that and even though im 18 everyone sees me as just a kid, i don’t blame them for it tho cuz no matter how mature and responsible I am, I’m very inexperienced so i understand why they wouldn’t feel at ease if they let me go, for that, I’ll stay a bit longer, after all, what i really wanted was for us to go all together.

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