I havenāt seen my best friend and one of the most important people in my life in years and all because of covid. One of them lives now in another town, not too far from here but still because Iām busy with school, we both are, we canāt see each other often so weāve only got to meet a few times in the past two years. I tried to get my mom to switch schools and move to the school they go to so we can be together but she refused to and i was never really able to tell her why this was very important to me, now weāve both graduated and i feel like weāve grown apart, I donāt want to lose them. The other one lives in the other side of the world, I was supposed to travel to see him on the summer of 2020 but the situation made it impossible, I thought this summer Iād finally be able to but I canāt, thereās still a 7-day quarantine in his country and I canāt afford it. I donāt know what to do anymore, i wasnāt even supposed to be living here, i feel like Iām stuck while everyone is continuing to live their life normally. Talking through a phone, being separated by a screen all the time, seeing each otherās faces but not being able to hug, it feels weird even tho I should be used to it by now. + heās kind of going through some things rn and i hate not being able to be there for him . Itās been days since we last talked and Iām not taking their absence very well, Iām this close to booking a flight and flying to them with no plan. Would that be too crazy??? cuz Iām actually about to do it, I havenāt told him yet but Iāve been thinking about it.
Itās okay to miss your friends and wanting to meet them. So sorry all this is happening to you.
See if you want to meet your friend check whether itās feasible for you to do so take permission from parents ā¦ I mean since you want to travel so long.
I think I could go, Iām already 18 and Iāve saved enough money to do so but very barely and Iād still have to ask my parents for help and theyād probably think Iāve gone mad but idk Iām ready to buy the tickets rn, maybe if i go to my parents had already bought tickets theyād be okay with it+ Iāve already travelled on my own before i think iād be fine. I donāt know maybe itās just that iāve had a bad day today and im not very stable emotionally so this is an urge iāve suddenly got, maybe i should think it through a bit more but I hate this city and i need to leave this place iāve been locked in for the past 2/3 years, my worst years. Thereās so much that has happened these past few years ever since covid become a thing, I wonāt get into it but so many things got totally ruined for me when I was finally starting to be happy again, 2019 was literally one of the best years in my life 2020 came at the worst time possible and took what felt like everything away from me. Thanks for ur understanding<3 maybe I should think about it a bit more.
I am sorry I almost missed the point that you might be feeling too many emotions which made you think of going to meet your friend. Exactly as you said think over it for some days. Then youāll yourself understand if this is important to you that much.
Also you are 18 but still parents will be worried about making their child travel alone so far. You can keep your savings to yourself instead of travelling like I mean to say they can be helpful to you in many ways . Like self pampering or buying something of your wishlist or for your future studies.
I donāt know if I am making sense but I just hope you stay calm think over it and take care of yourself.
Yes ur right and thank you so much for taking the time to read and understand my situation <3 I was about to buy the plane tickets yesterday but thankfully I didnāt bc I thought it would be a very rushed decision to make. I still think i should do something about this and im planning to however maybe some other time when things are a bit better. My only problem is never knowing when that time will come, but hopefully soon. I talked to my parents and they promised to help me leave next year as soon as possible, Iāll wait for now. If i only had to worry about me knowing myself I would not wait, i wouldāve just bought those tickets however my parents wouldnāt like that and even though im 18 everyone sees me as just a kid, i donāt blame them for it tho cuz no matter how mature and responsible I am, Iām very inexperienced so i understand why they wouldnāt feel at ease if they let me go, for that, Iāll stay a bit longer, after all, what i really wanted was for us to go all together.