I have trichotilomania, this disorder can lower yourself confidence so much… been struggling with this since I was a kid, the past two years I almost got rid of the pulling and had nice hair and it made me feel great, but I have gone through a lot of stress and toxic relationship issues, and life in general was just too much… I broke and i ruined my hair, I’m devastated, I’m heart broken and I’m lonely and this seems to never stop… and I can’t get in a relationship with anyone now because not everyone understands… and it’s just so hard and I’m sad. ?
I’m so sorry that you have to go through it b=without being able to talk to anyone… I had a friend, back when I was in school and she had TTM too. Everyone used to think she was strange and used to make fun of her, but nobody really knew that it’s a real issue, I didn’t know it myself. And even though it’s not your job to explain it to people, maybe with a few trusted individuals, you could open up. Honestly, these are the only people worthy of your time, the ones who at least attempt to understand and help you feel better, not worse. Choose the people you surround yourself with, very wisely. Be mindful of how they make you feel, how you are around them…there genuinely are good people who care about you, there aren’t a lot of them, because most people are douchebags, pardon my language, but there are a few good people too, and that’s all we need.
I’m so sorry that you have to go through it. But don’t let yourself down. Stand for yourself. I feel each person is beautiful in its own ways, i mean god created us and if god gives u some limitations in life, he would have definitely give you some plus points too. Find that plus points in you, work on it and you will achieve great success then.
All the best.