I have friends but i really feel left out always . I really need new friends what should i do ?

Ok u can say the state... I can be a friend if you are like atleast in my city... Mumbai

But the thing is i am not a very social person and i dont know how to make new friends thats the only reason im sticking with these ones

If you feel left out among your friends, then maybe they are not right for you... let them go... don't make someone a priority when you are not a priority to them... let those people go and make space for new people to come... cuz trust me, I am telling this out of my numerous experiences, when you let go of the old, new and better people come.... it's all about letting go and making space for the new... Goodluck😘❤

Lonely

I want to talk to my trusted and go-to friends, but i don't want to bother them why do i even feel this way. 

Frustration

Staying lonely..
Avoiding my family
No proper routine 
Not eating well enough 
Episodes of manic nd low phases.

All I think is that a good friend can help me through but lucky me, I got none...
Sometimes I just really feel a need of good friend.
I help people nd they leave, make them happy nd they even don't care.
Everyone uses me nd throws me away.

I just want a good friend, is that too much for people around ?




3am Thoughts

I didn't have a lot of friends growing up probably because of my trust issues . I never really let someone get to know me but I don't want to be like that anymore . How am I ever going to trust anyone ? Will I ever make any friends 

hi guys, I just wanted to share the phase of my life. I graduated last year I had great groups of friends maybe, you know friends like updating each thing from going to college or not wala stuff. but after I graduated that group of friends just vanishes. nobody to share feelings with. Everyone body busy in their own life. I miss them, I miss those chit-chat we use to do. I miss all of them.

Friends

Later year, I was into two actors who were good friends. I knew them from my friends who explained to me about what actor A had suffered from and how actor B was helping him. It was my source of happiness after coming home from my stress job. I feel happy to see how actor B was taking care actor A and how their friendship was like brotherhood. They were very close that I'm glad to see it. I was so into their friendship that I thought they will stay friends forever.

Well, liking actors is not a good thing anyway. It made me obsessed with them. I was always waiting for them. I wanted to see them more together. I thrived for their interactions. And I fought with people who claimed actor B is not a good man because I liked him. 

It was until they had wrapped up the filming that actor B suddenly becomes cold. At first, I was thinking if this happened because of covid. There are less interactions and lots of effort from actor A to tell the fans they are good. But later on, I realized actor B actually did the same things actor A had suffered to actor A again. 

It was very devastating. I ended up pushing everything away. I didn't want to see actors. Deep into my head, I knew this happened because I was disappointed with myself to believe things that people showed on the surface. It made me stopped watching series for years until my friend suggested me to watch a new series.

Now, I have another source of happiness. I am happy with the series I'm watching and I'm avoiding knowing the actors. I am scared if thing is going to be the same as before. I know this series has different actors but sometimes it makes me feel anxious to watch the series. I am afraid that I will end up with the same remorse I felt about the previous actors.

It doesn't make sense to me why I'm feeling like this just for actors. But somehow I don't believe with people and I'm avoiding people at all cost unless they are my family.

Here is a sad, but interesting story. I solved a very big mystery in my life today. I am 29 years old. I have always been told that I get attached to people very soon. If I had a penny for every time I heard this, I'd beat Ambani. 

Why do I get attached so quickly?
Why do I share my life's stories so quickly?
Why do I speak like I've known them for years?
Why do I act like they are my best friend?
Why did I think just cause they are nice to me they wanna be my friend?

It was hard but SIMPLE truth, my dumb brain took a while (years) to understand or realise this and the answer came to me. 

Im speaking nothing but the truth when I say this - I have, not once in my entire life, experienced what having a friend is. NOT ONCE, even for 5 seconds. 
Kindergarten to college to work to being 29 years old. My inbox is empty, I dont have a friend to share reels with or acquaintances, I dont know how it is to have a friend. 
In college and school, I used to hide in the library cause of lack of friends. 

Eventually, the need to have one was much that I had intentionally become a desperate toxic person, needy for friends and some attention. 

SO yeah - Now, off late when people try to be friends with me, Its funny. I feel like saying "im good, no thanks." i've gotten used to this... 

LMAO friends/friendship, words I never got to use in my life. 

Sometimes I regret being friends easily. I should choose them. If even then I am wrong, I should feel guilty. I feel guilty being friends with judging and being hurt. 

Relationships

I'm feel like alone

All friend are fake

Fake world

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