I have been in recovery for 3 days and today I went out for lunch I couldn’t control and ate over my limit I came home and ate some more. I really want to recover but I’m very nauseous right now. All I can think of is purging because I feel very uneasy. I’m scared of losing more weight because my parents found out about my bulimia and are keeping tabs on me. Can someone please suggest some things I could do so I don’t feel so shitty.

Take one day at a time. Eat only if you want and things you like. And try portion control.

Bulimia Nervosa

Heyy!
We have all geard about great great love stories. 
Do you blv in destiny? Idk why am i linking it wth destiny. But here just to share this feeling I felt today.
So this is a story about two divine souls, Radha and krishna. Seez even after decades and decades, we are using these names together. Kuch toh tha unke pyaar m. Krishna, being the Lord couldn't marry the love of his life, besides, he got married to other 106 women out there but not wth that one Radha, he loved!
Krishna had a very strong energy, like he could do anything! I came to know that even Radha was his energy, all the gopies out there were due to his energy. For Radha, it was a little more! In the eyes of Indian law, qurans or other holistic books, marriage is blvd to be a contract bw two parties. Krishna was never a normal soul. He had something different. So how could he get married to someone who was so different. As told above, radha was one of his energies! Also, they wanted to define love as something beyond those physical attractions. Pyaar toh do dilo ka mel hota h na, or jha dil ho, vha jismo ka kya kaam. Love is not just about being physclly attracted to opposite prsn. Or shadi k baad toh there's a whole different life na, hardships, relationships, everything has to be there. How could they just let go their love for the sake of being married?
Marriage is a contract, love is an emotion. We can love the prsn and still choose to let him or her go, cz we love them!  This is changing my whole idea of being in loveee! Idk why
Just wntd to share it. Thankyou for making it till here❤
Just felt like sharing it. Thankyoy for being here


Love

i just have a question is it okay to be vulnerable with someone?


3am Thoughts

Got my booster dose today.
 : ) 


COVID-19

I’ve been feeling alot of things lately. I don’t know where to start from, on some days i feel very confident but on somedays all of it just becomes very unbearable. Recently my college started offline classes and now after a year of online classes i made 2 friends, but one of them is very different in real. I’ve heard of her doing plannings and plottings, she and i had one common male friend, she bullied him of me saying”she friend zoned you and even though everyone knew that I’m in a very happy and healthy LDR, still she continued bullying him in the name of fun, and when i got to know about it I confronted her once and twice and told her to stop, but she just kept justifying her actions as it’s their bond and they don’t fee anything, the boy started having feelings for me after the peer pressure and constant push and one day when i was sick and slept on his bed after medications, (I wasn’t conscious) he touched my boobs tried kissing me, i pushed him back still in the state of half-consciousness, he suddenly stood up and started saying sorry so that i don’t create a scene, i was too blank atm, I decided to leave but he didn’t let me. Because the main doors were closed from outside, i sat down on the chair and left in the morning as soon as the door opened. And then he started spreading false rumours and talks about the night, so i went to confront him infront of all of our friends then he was caught in his his own false stories twice and everyone chose to ignore that, even my girl-friend didn’t say a word and then later she comes to me and says “I’m w you, ik he’s lying” but still she didn’t stand by me. I was all alone in the battle, I didn’t come out of my hostel room for days didn’t eat, cried for so many days and then one day her boyfriend calls me and says to have a normal life or else whole hostel will get to know what happened and then they won’t let you live, he even said that my fault was to take medicines and sleep on his bed. ( i trusted him as a friend)  I didn’t know what was coming. I was numb for days. And now till date she behaves weird w me. No one talks to me properly. I’m left w just one friend who’s also my roommate. And now I haven’t been able to concentrate on my studies, I’ve constant mood swings, i feel sick most of the times, I’ve no friends i can trust.I’m not able to put my faith on anyone. 
I have very good and trustworthy partner, he’s w me, he believes in me, and he knows how I’m fighting w my own thoughts so to keep me calm he has been over protective these days, he over do everything, be it care, concern, love everything, and o get irritated these days, i broke up w him today stating these facts. I hate to be weak, i hate what I’m becoming. 
These days i feel very very very low. I cry daily, everyday. It’s very hard to survive like this. 
Even on somedays, when a person starts behaving soemthing out of blue which he/she doesn’t used to makes me go paranoid, and think what did i do now. 
It feels without even committing any wrong, I’m the one facing the hardships. And it’s very difficult. + with all the financial issue going at home and my mother’s health is also not being bery good makes me worry so much. I’m having a very hard time keeping my faith on things and people and maybe even on god. I’ve tried being good but if this is what comes in return What’s the use of staying and doing good? I’m just too heartbroken. 

Anxiety

Why is it so hard to live life? Why do we have to live? Who told us to live? 

I want to overcome being lonely 

wish it was as easy to stop loving someone as easy as it was to love them.

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