i have been feeling very low lately. i sent a video to a loved one of mine which i meant as a cute gesture…but it made him want to take things slow. i know the problem is mine because i start giving my 100% very soon to every person. is this out of some trauma i can’t spot? or is this some people peasing behavior? or am i just fuckin stupid? i think i make people awkward. he said i was perfect for him but idk …i have lost the ability to focus on the good and i just keep listening the things that could indicate that i am being a problem. i fucking hate myself . i am also so unaware of all the cool things our generation is supposed to know and i end up feeling like a fucking noob. my health is also a constant problem… i feel ugly. i also have some symptoms of imposter syndrome since all the achievements of mine that people regard as huge don’t even feel real to me. i feel like i don’t deserve anything i have…not even small copliments…idk what my situation is. i hate everything right now