I have always felt the need to go above and beyond, because if I donโt I feel unworthy. I have a test coming up, and I just feel stressed out because I donโt have much time to practice. I feel like its going to affect my future and everything. My parents have told me it doesnโt matter, but Iโm still stressed out. I have been procrastinating an end of the year project for an AP for a couple weeks now, and I feel like crap. Does it matter if I fail the exams? Will I be okay? I have this classmate that always seems to do better than me, and it makes me feel even crappier. Is it important is they beat me? I have about 3 weeks to do an ap project and 2 ap tests. Is that enough time? I feel light headed and dizzy and just worried and mentally exhausted. I want to stop giving a crap, but I canโt because its important.
Take some time to breathe, your need to go above and beyond is amazing! Most people donโt even bother to do anything, so donโt feel unworthy, no matter what you do. Donโt make this test your number one priority. You still need to live your life, talk to your friends and family and make sure youโre in a good mental state. I suggest making yourself feel the best you possibly can before you start to worry about more important things. It does not matter if anyone beats you, youโre human. You donโt need to be better than everyone else, youโre perfect just the way you are. You were made to be like this. Try talking to someone who cares, let it all out. If you feel like youโre going to cry, do just that. I believe you are going to do amazing, whoever you are. You may feel like everyone is telling you that you are fine when youโre not. Believe me, once itโs over you will feel better. Whatever is making you feel stressed, try to tackle it. Remember, you are loved and no one is going to hate you if you fail. This test is just a speed bump on your path. You just need to brace yourself for it and once itโs over, you will not have to worry about it. Please donโt overwork yourself, take time to be you, and not let this test affect you as a human being.