Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I hate my father. I don’t like him. He has caused incredible pain. Never understood me, doesn’t attempt to. Doesn’t appreciate me, my efforts. He’s a very pride man, wants me to surrender to him and simply follow his directions. He considers that’s the only way to go, listen to him, my elder. I hate it. He doesn’t get it that I’m a different person, an adult with my own thoughts, my values, interests, desires, passions. He doesn’t respect me, value my achievements… always disappointed that I don’t listen to him. Only expresses his disappointment towards me. Every time he expresses about his problems, I try to understand, acknowledge, sympathize with him, offer him support and solution that I can think of, but he dismisses it. He always want to give credit to my brother, his elder son. It pains me that every time I want to experience that love towards a son from him, I get disappointed. Pains me a lot!! Don’t know how to get over this terrible loop. Feel like I want to breakup with my parents, if it’s indeed a thing. But I love them, and want them and their live in my life, but don’t think that’s going to happen.