I got breakup. This was a 5 year relationship.
I don't know how to handle my self.
Everyone near me giving me a lot of advice but i feel their voice not even reaching my ears. 
I lost first time anything in my life.  How she can move on so early
I don't understand what to do 
Please help 

But this anxiety....
Sleepless night....
Yrr nhi ho rha 
Mai uske pairo me tak gir gya jbki meri glti b nhi thi

Just wanna cry 😭
Nothing to say
I have responsibilities 
Ghr me bda hu mai 
Maa baap ko bhut expectation hai
Kyu hota h ye sb 
Itni planning.... Itne spne... 
Sb khtm ho gya 
Maine meri life hi assume nhi ki uske bina

I don't know where and who you are from. I just want to say thank you you gave your time.
Bss rate katni muskil hai 
Din to jimmedariya puri krne me nikal hi jate h. 


Breakup

Morning world! Today I’m going to go to the gym and then seek to go home and hug my doggy. What’s everyone else’s plan?

Exercise

me and the band have known each other since we were kids we live in the same town work at the same bar when we go on tour its like a little adventure and we like to go in style we get out of the road and play our music loud we dont need the interruptions nothing to interrupt us just the road music and my best friend let me get home and it's back to reality I mean you know until next time tap the banner to learn more

3am Thoughts

May the one you're praying for,be written for you.


Been in a relationship for 4.5 years. Would say almost 95% of that time was long distance. Stayed committed, stayed loyal, invested time, stayed awake, tried to do whatever was required and made my life around her. We kept fighting. And the reason being: she could give me time. She never tried to love me back. I was never the priority. There was no romance. Every time i used to tell her that i needed you to just give me time, she would get angry turn the phone off and go away for hours and say mean things to me. I waited for hours trying to wait for her in long distance. I never got assurance for what she had. After 4.5 years she decided to end it and i was devastated because even after these many things i cared so much because i knew she was a bit different from others but i felt with time she would understand it is important to give love and time in a relationship. It didnt. We broke up in long distance and she suddenly just started being very careless and not understand anything i said. All i expected was kindness and respect. If i didnt say 10 times that i felt bad about this or that, it was not remembered but if i say once, i was blamed that i complain and get angry. I am very emotional person and this has got me so much anxiety for the last 6/7 months. I dont know what next. 

Mera khoon krke tu phaansi laga le….
Yahi aasan tarika hai….kahi tu dil laga le

I once hosted my friends at my home since we had an academic project which took place in my town. But i think i was pretty bad at hosting and feel so guilty for not treating them well. Though it was not intentional. My introvert ass panicked so much during the day. They were more in number and my home doesn't had that much facilities for all of them. Initially the plan was for another place to stay but however it finally ended up in my home. But i was so happy to welcome them. Even i really wished once to invite my whole pals to my home. But that time i couldn't manage it well. They adjusted so well though. But now i think about it and wish if i could have done more better. I was so bad at it. I really wish if i could invite everyone one more time  and plan a stayover. Things doesn't seem okay now. Everyone is somewhere and we are slowing going apart.
Whenever i thinked about that time i feel happy but also guilt.

I actually get a lot irritated by my bf these days. Today I posted an outfit pic with my little cousins. soon after he messaged me saying some sexual that i literally felt so uncomfortable hearing at. I just started fuming in anger and shouting at him. I don't think I overreacted.

Anger Issues

He left me when I needed him the most. He never understood how important he was to me. The only thing he saw in me were my flaws. He broke my heart.

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