i feel so empty. nothing fulfills me anymore. i’m so unhappy and devastated with life, i hate it. and i hate me too, i hate how i act and want to be different. it’s so boring, especially when you are holding on by a thread. i am so tired. i want it to be over already. no matter where i go, or what happens i feel so unsatisfied. unsatisfied with life, and how am i living. i feel like no matter where i go or what i do it will never be enough, for myself, and others. i am constantly viewed poorly by everyone, and it doesn’t matter how many times i explain myself to others, no one is listening, or even trying to . i am tired of trying to find someone new to go to. especially when i can easily predict what everyone around me is going to say. i don’t know where i can find atleast one person who understands how i feel. most of the time i don’t even go to people who i know i can, because they have their own issues. i don’t want to flip it on me, or cause too much pressure. i know it’s not all about me, but for some reason it seems like it never is. i get frustrated, and want to cry. crying is the only thing i never seem to get bored of. i don’t how to change my life to make it something seem worth living for, or something i look forward to. i don’t know what i want or how to go through with it. which is not helping either. i can barely even put my thoughts into sentences, even this, was the bare minimum of the overwhelming thoughts, and everything i feel. it almost feels like an identity crisis, i become obsessive with everything, trying to see if i would like my life it was entirely different or come up with make believe things in my head, or even relate it to something i have interest in, but just ends up with me becoming upset because it’s out of my reach and will never be able to happen. i know we don’t get everything in life, or everything that we want. i’m aware. i don’t want to come off as some spoiled kid, i just needed somewhere to explain the tiniest of what’s going on inside.
i saw someone else say they feel like they are existing, and not living, that basically sums some of it up.
I m here
I will listen 🤗
thank you so much. it has honestly just gotten to the point where i am more interested in what lies after death than living on with something i’m unhappy with.
Nothing lies after death
It’s simple science your consciousness is just the result of unique em pulses inside your brain once you die its gone, you no longer exist
So don’t try something stupid 🥺
My advice is to start meditation to clear your thoughts if you have the money then go to Nanda parbaat or somewhere near monks and ask them the meaning of life and you will surely find something
I surely can’t understand your pain but I hve been through lot myself and trust me when I say bad times never last
No matter the length of dark night one day sun will shine and you will bloom 😊
It all comes to patience
Till then try to find a job
hey i understand how bad this feeling is. and you’re absolutely right sometimes we just want that feeling that ya this is my person and he/she will be there for me no matter what. trust me i’ve been through the same thing and still kinda stuggling to feel good.
some thing which might help you.
1] start working out,don’t be hard on yourself do 15-30 mins for just a week and you’ll see the difference. it helped me with my mood swings.
2] reduce the about of caffeine intake.
3] don’t keep your thoughts to yourself, Basically what i’m tryna say is talk about every single thing that is bothering you. you can tell me everything without the fear of judgement .
4] i’m here no mater what
5]it’s all in our head just manage how to balance it.
6] if you’ve isolated yourself [ isonalion is a good thing you acctually dgaf about anyting] for too long then try to change it start making some good friends[you got 1 tho]
i hope it helps
thank you! i will definitely try my best, this really did help a lot. it is reassuring knowing i’m not alone though. but i just don’t know what to do. i am young and have plenty of time, but in all honesty it just worries me even more if that makes sense. i don’t know what i want, and i can’t seem to figure it out or understand this feelings. and i think if i were to figure it out it would help. i don’t want to wait months or years to figure it out if this feeling still lingers. it makes me feel empty, and like so much is missing. that’s why i mentioned about obsessing over what i don’t have, because if i imagine myself or my life with it, or as someone else then it doesn’t seem so bad. but once reality hits i feel more crushed than i did before lol. sometimes i will even try to imagine different scenarios, but i still seem unsatisfied with that outcome too. everything along with this “emptiness” just keeps adding up and makes it even more miserable. i’m sorry, i’m trying my best to put it in words but nothing describes it right.
my biggest fear is dying unfulfilled. but at the same time it’s just like i want to get it over with already?
