I feel really numb these days and I don't know the reason... I feel lost; it's like I've lost all sense of reality and everything's a blur. I sometimes just stare into space and can just not think of anything and go blank for so long. There isn't a specific reason for me to feel like this... and I really don't know why it's happening

Honestly journaling helped me a lot. I was forced to think of how I felt, opening me up a lot! I would try it and see if you can figure out the root of your problem! 

Everyone will have a tough phase of life to be encountered..i think this is your time to stay strong and take care of your mental health! Eventually everything will be alright 🌻

Confusion

How to know that you are very sensitive 

Life

I'm am married for almost an year now . I'm 24 , living with my husband and his family , working .
I actually have everything that most people may have a problem of not having be it materialistic , emotions or otherwise.
But i feel so low , depressed , i just hate myself and there is this lingering sadness in me that destroying the me I knew and my health. It's creating breakdowns for me in every sphere . 
I feel indentity crisis and I want to do something for myself stand up for myself keep myself happy . I'm giving me 100 percent for everyone and everything and  i know everyone is being kept happy by me

Depression

Feeling strange
Dont know why

Lonely

i keep telling myself that everything’s gonna be okay and things will get better, but nothing has gotten better and it never will. I’ve heard it from a lot of people and it never happened.

i dont know why am here ...my back is hurting and am probably procrastinating,depressed theres no light...thats how it always goes with me still there where i started

I think my biggest problem is that i care too much. I care to much of what people think of me, my actions, my comments, my behaviour and everything. Specially the people who i consider close to me, their opinion means alot to me. I prioritise them over me and my problems. But in this process u don't realise that i am no where near their top priorities. While i am thinking about their problems all day i ignore my own problems. I have a friend who has a hard time with her family, she often calls me at night not to talk just to cry and just have someone there for her. And i appreciate it, i like that she can trust me and that she knows that I'm always here for her, but i guess i ignore the fact that I'm also in the middle of an anxiety attack during the same time, i supress my tears so that i don't make her feel worse while hurting myself in the process. I know it's wrong, and ig it's probably selfish of me to even post this but i don't know.
And the feeling that no one actually gives a shit about me is always there. I am always here for my friends whenever they wanna talk but are they gonna be their for me? Am i as important to them as they are for me? Cause i really don't feel like it...

LATELY,  I FEEL LIKE I'M AT MY LOWEST. I DON'T WANT TO GET UP TO BED, I DON'T SHOWER, AND MY ROOM IS A FUCKING MESS THAT IT SMELLS ROTTEN BECAUSE I HAVEN'T CLEAN UP FOR WEEKS.

TODAY, I'M CLEANING UP EVERYTHING BUT I FEEL TIRED ALREADY BECAUSE I KNOW IT WILL JUST COME BACK. EVERYTHING WILL BECOME OVERWHELMING AGAIN THEN I'LL STOP FUNCTIONING. 

IT'S A CYCLE AND I HATE THIS FEELING. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? HOW DO I GET OUT FROM THIS?

I'M SO TIRED OF LIVING LIKE THIS. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. 

Depression is a mental illness that fucks with your mind, that becomes friends with your thoughts and slowly manipulates them...it tricks your mind especially the way you see yourself. It consumes you from the inside that slowly appears to show from the outside, it makes you exhausted...dull. 
Then you slowly start to feel anxious and your self-esteem starts to disappear, you feel self-conscious about your surroundings like itś the first time you´ve seen them. You feel like you can´t breathe like you are gasping for air, you start to realize that not only you have depression but the anxiety decides to introduce itself.
You are locked inside your house scared and anxious to leave, but relaxed and safe inside. But as time passes by you forget about the safeness and relaxation you felt..like it was never there, you feel stressed and pressured from what has become today.
When you forcefully take yourself out or your family takes you with them to buy the groceries, you feel everyone's eyes on you, you want to run and get as far as possible but can´t. The mask you wear makes you feel somewhat safe, but feel exposed at the same time.
One of the worst feelings is when you feel looked at while trying to gasp for air but have the mask on that doesn't let you, your mind goes black and can´t think of anything but the stupid manipulating voice in your head.
I feel overwhelmed and scared...
 

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