I feel excited about the idea of dying, not knowing what will happen after death and just ending it all. But I don’t really do it for real because my fam and dog won’t be happy. It’s just an odd thought that keeps coming back to my mind from time to time. I don’t share it to my friends. I’m not just used to sharing and I am afraid that they’ll think that I am being dramatic. Plus, I don’t really have much friends. I’ve always have difficulty in befriending people because I always doubt if they actually like me. Sometimes, when I’m feeling down, I just cry and talk alone. I don’t know if that’s weird but I feel like there’s a voice in my head talking to me back and there are actual conversations and sometimes it’s just one voice. It’s good at telling me that I’m gonna fail on everything I do even before I started. Sometimes, it’s fun talking to them but weird too because if they are in my head then they are me right? Is it the same for everyone? Because I don’t know what’s happening inside other people’s mind so I just assume that it happens and people just don’t talk about it.
I’ve never been into a doctor. I don’t tell it to my parents. We are not that close tbh but I love them anyway.
That’s it. I just really wanted to vent so I searched for a site like this.
Simran Patel @simranpatel
You are very brave to pen down what you feel. It’s not easy so let me tell you, you are an extremely strong person. I’d just like to tell you that our brain is a complex organ, we usually don’t have a control on our thoughts. But what’s important is not to let our thoughts control us!
The negativity is temporary. Just understand that it’s a phase and it shall pass. Don’t let it become familiar.
And it’s okay to feel low at times. Just make sure you recognise the frequency of these emotions and try to keep yourself occupied with things that make you happy when you feel you’re getting into the negative zone again.
If you ever want someone to talk to, we are all here and you don’t need to think twice about being judged. We are all rooting for you. More power and love to you❤️
Hey you! It’s alright to share things with your friends and family, they do care about you and they will definitely understand your perspective. They will not think you’re being dramatic. Please don’t worry about being liked or not by people because it realllllly doesn’t matter at all. In the end, it’s YOU that matters and what you think about YOURSELF. If you think you are going to fail at something, so what? You learn lessons from failure and get back up stronger and you try again. You are not alone in this. So glad that you took the step of sharing and vented out here. More power and love to youu!
Its really hard to explain this. Reading this makes me feel like me some years back.
Whoever you are Just want to say you this everything will be okay . Share with your parents and siblings how you feel . At first they will feel dramatic and ignore you , but please explain them well how you feel inside and start doing something you like to do . It is really enough for you to live for your loved ones. I hope you are doing fine and keep posting how you feel.