I feel broken. The girl I love and wish to spend the rest of my life with I haven't heard from properly in 3 months. It's just constant heartache and I don't know what to do. I miss her smile and laugh but not receiving even a message is difficult right now. I feel so helpless.

It's hard coz i never loved someone more than her. in fact she's my first love I don't think I can love anyone else like I love her. 

She finally got back to me and just found out it was legit SAC so it's all good lol 


Love

Hello people
Things might not have gone according to your plan today, maybe you couldn't finish the schedule you set for yourself or maybe you didn't have energy to even get out of your bed. 
But do you know what I'm proud of you! 
Because your tried, you tried your best and did give up! 
Tomorrow is another day and we will try again and we will keep trying till we achieve what we dreamt of. <3

Motivation

Feeling so good since past 1 week since i started working on myself and my food quality. ❤️ Thankful and Blessed. 

3am Thoughts

So, I've been hearing that our branch might be closing down and alll through the grapevine of course, the company will obviously not inform us till we're on our knees. This means I'm on the job hunt again, after having worked here for just close to 3 years. It just feels so sad and so strange that employees don't really mean much to a company and are irreplaceable. Moreover, the physical and mental burden that unemployment brings , till I'm back on my feet and I know that I have a job. Sometimes, really, there's only so much optimism that you can force out of yourself. Just want this phase to get over soon. 

Work

I love him. I want to tell him, we have kissed and fooled around, he loved me before but I didn’t have feelings before. After so many years I finally felt attraction. I’m Demi sexual, so idk I had to go through this whole journey. I want to throw myself
Into his arms….. I miss him. But I can’t 

Sexual Health

Pakistani movies ? Plz recommend me


Hey, since we're not texting like we used to, I don't know about your day, I don't know what you're going through anymore. I miss the moments when you share everything about your life. I wish nothing but the best for you. But in the end, I just really miss you..

Lonely

I have been in relationship with this boy for almost three years.. after some months he wasn't the same. He changed. He stopped caring, he stopped looking at me. When i told him these things he started getting annoyed. And when I wept, he got more annoyed... After 3 years I got some strength and finally decided to end it with him. I stopped talking. But then he sent me I miss you kind of messages and I couldn't resist. Just everytime I tried leaving he'd get sad or i don't know if he actually did. But seeing him sad always brought me back. he knew it. And once I was back.. he was back to the same. I felt no love. No happiness . Only yearning. More and more. In the end i felt that it was impossible to stop talking to him, cuz i suffocate. And the next time he said i miss you, he got sad. I went to him.. and I told him that I'll be there but there should be only a casual relationship so that I don't end up expecting anything from him.. he was totally okay with it.
Today we talk less, I don't wait for his call, receive when he calls. And i don't stop him when he says bye.. 
But today, even after i have stopped him from doing so, he kissed me on video call. Although i pretended that i didn't like it. And remained neutral. I did like it. 
I felt again that he feels something for me

I waited for his call till night , he didn't call.. i controlled but i texted hey and did call in the end. He didn't receive, and then after some time he sent a text hi. 
I know it's too much overreacting maybe but i was expecting a call back. So i said , good night I'm sleepy. He said good night. Then i again called in a bit, he picked up and he said i was gonna go to sleep as a taunt, i said maybe cuz i thought you'd call.. in a fun way so that it isn't awkward.. 
I waited for the same look in his eyes but he didn't even looked at me . He kept doing something in the background. I agin said I'm sleepy and i said bye. So did he. 
I know it isn't that much big of a matter but since then I'm angry on myself for loosing my control. Maybe for thinking too much. And maybe for expecting that he would have wanted to talk to me cuz he kissed my face in the morning.. but nothing , blank. I can't help feeling angry even if it is too much. I cannot help it. How do i get over this guy.. it's a cycle which just keeps on going and never ends. Its driving me mad...

I just feel like i dont belong anywhere! 

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