I don't know why but i don't open up with my friends. I don't want to tell them my career plans and what's happening in my life and they think that I'm not good as they are.

you may be right but I think it's not about insecurity. I also want that they will succeed in life. The main problem is that I don't want to openup with them, I don't get such kind of vibes with them that I want.

I'd say that it's your insecurity speaking, TBH. It's the same with me. I don't like sharing my career goals with anyone. When I see my friends doing better than me, I feel anxious that It should've been me. Given that I hustled more than they did. (At least, from what I saw)

I don’t want to talk to my friends because last year I was a burden on them with my venting and therefore I’m not going to say anything this year. But then I guess if I can’t be real with then then they’re not really friends. Sometimes I wonder if I’m not good enough for them and if I should just not have any friends.

Exhausted

I know it’s toxic but, Am I the only one who tends to create fake scenarios in my head that will probably never happen? Whether it’s concerning relationships, life, etc etc. 
Mainly all of these scenarios comes from the “what ifs” I have in mind. And I tend to think of these scenarios in a negative manner... I honestly have no idea why I abuse myself mentally and emotionally  

Mental Health

I really don’t understand why I don’t have any friend. In past I helped them whenever they were in trouble or in a worst situation. Now I don’t have any and even if I call them or msg them they don’t reply. I can see everyone has friends to enjoy and talk. How on earth am the one to whom no one care about me or not interested to talk to me. Am I such a horrible person or what? I am just a lonely creature, people just remember me or call me when they have something. Otherwise I don’t just exist on earth 

Lonely

hey guys i hope everyone's doing well and is safe.

its been a year i've been at home so far. i dont really have any issues with school or anything else but through this year i've noticed all my friends really being distant to me and dont really feel like talking or interacting with me even though ive reached out several times to initiate something. its been a long year and its been kinda bad because i've been adrift from all my friends who all of a sudden don't have any care to respond to me or read my messages and completely blank me like they never liked me in the first place and were just putting up an act in the first place. I know of all of them video calling each other the whole day and for hours and hours in the night and even meeting up with each other, and no matter how much i try they just dont seem to want to do that w me or include me in anything. Im really struggling, i wait all day by my phone to see if anyone even remembers i existed, but to no avail. i really dont know what to do and im just trapped ig because i cant really make meet friends bc of the current situation but also as much and i've done myself screw those guys i still really want to be friends and hang out and have fun like before 

Frustration

You call them friends 😏 I heard snakes 🐍

I never thought I would be writing/saying this in the worst nightmares, but I lost all people I called my friends for 10 years in one evening.

While I say things outrightly, they kept things to them that bothered them. 
There were judgements on my character, allegations and whatnot. 

While these were the girls that always gave me the confidence to be myself, these turned out to be the ones who humiliated me and called it "confrontation", to make our relationship better. They were hurt because I gave them opinions on their relationships, when they clearly asked for it. 

I feel what they did that evening was therapy talk to make me doubt my intentions and just a way for them to make me obey them. I am taking space, but I have reservations. I don't know if I even want to go through all this again, even if it's to make them understand how hurt I am. 

Confusion

Hello everyone.
I am on a leave from my hostel.
Well life there have not been that positive that I thought it would be. But still I have to achieve my goal and run further.
I am home to give some exams and might be leaving for hostel soon again. Hope I will do a fresh start. 
Honestly. I don't want friends. They hurted me alot but what can I do?! 
I even let them hurt me but when I unintentionally did something to hurt them they were like- you are bitch you don't deserve friends.

I hope I can find myself again and start to love myself

Friends

I'm first year college student and I met some friends online before we start our offline classes. They were very friendly to me and we decided to stay together. Now, we are staying together in the same appartment and it turned out that they in relationship (we all girls, I forgot to mention this before), one of them is lesbian and one is bi sexual. Yeah, I support LGBT and I strongly support their relationship but I'm not feeling comfortable to stay with them. Almost all the time I feel lonely and left alone by them. I don't feel comfortable to go up to them and talk by seeing them together. It feels like I'm in interrupting them. Even thought to change but i have no one to stay with so I'm trying to adjust. U can give me ur suggestions.

Thank you so much.

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts