I don't know.. Well, I met my first date few days back...I meant the first date I ever went to and let me tell you it was nostalgic.. But the guy asked for video call for you know that stuff and I agreed.. I agreed like what is wrong with me IDK. He said that he likes me but I don't and he knows.. Nowadays I don't recognize myself.. Where was that person who was jolly, had friends and was good in studies?? It is all slowly going away from me.. Most of the days I just wanna sit and talk to my friends the whole day. 

I guess it takes toll on you emotionally and mentally and then it effect on you badly but i think it is gone now so forgive yourself 

It can be take some time to come out of it. Pls be safe and I hope you become a better version of yourself. Are you still in touch or you are not taking terms now

3am Thoughts

Is it normal that one moment I'm crying wishing for someone to stay and the next I'm wishing everyone would disappear, i hate this feeling of loneliness but i always get distant from people and get myself back to being alone bc people exhaust me, one moment i just want to tell someone how i feel but when I face that person I lose all my strength and I feel too emotionally exhausted to even talk about it, I just don't want anymore, all I want is to be alone and forget it all,  but that's not possible. I start talking to someone once and then ghost them and i feel sorry about it, but although i want to i can't form any connection with anyone, bc a second ill feel really social and want to talk but the next i just want to be alone with my headphones on,my thoughts and myself only. What can i do about it? i want friends, i want to meet people but i know ill just end up leaving like always.
I just have way to many problems to be around anyone 

Other

I've been depressed a lot during the last years and got so used to feeling down. so every now and then when I have a good day I always feels like I'm lying to myself because I feel like this is not me and I am actually this sad person. Anyone else feels like this? What do you do about it? 

Depression

Any one there

Conflict

Life is really getting more hard day by day, I am trying my best but sometimes i feel like Should i give up? Does my life even matter? Yes, i have many dreams but I am getting tired day by day .. and it really feels so suffocating. I wanted to post this from my main id but ad this platform is getting more funny day by day and people here starts judging me (although it is happening everywhere) so i thought to be anonymous. 

Thanks for reading 

I never thought I'd open up about this but here we go I'm clearly the guy anyone goes for i have a tragic past which shaped me who i am today and sometimes it's good and sometimes it feels like shit, i got in a relationship with this girl who was okay with my past and everything but recently due to some reasons she committed suicide i feel like shit because i have no idea what i should do or anything


Suicidal Ideation

Would you give her a second chance ... ? If she cheats on you ? 


Cheating

Today  was the 1st day I took stand for myself  I want to study  aboard  after doing  btech in computer  science  nobody in my family supports me except  my mother she wants  me to be a successful on the  other  hand my father and uncle have limited  thinking  and wants me to keep here and help them in their respective  works they gave me example that there you would work like labour  don't  go outside  my uncle  even abuse me and even he said that your life would be shit after some years there and it hurt me ....how can he say these words to a child who wants to do things that he wants to explore  and enjoy that really  hurts me cause emotional  breakdown  but when I thought on my decision  and found that this is was my own decision  I fought  with my family  and took hard decision ....life is  full of new experiences  and taking tough decisions  and there starts my that phase of my life after thinking  that I am happy  now my today's  lesson of day is that ALWAYS TRIES TO FIND POSITIVITY IN NEGATIVE  PHASE THAT POSITIVE  PART GIVE YOU INFINITE  HAPPINESS 

Personal Growth

No matter how hard you try
Those scars won't go away
Those memories won't fade 
Even though you hv accepted the situation
But sometime someday all this things hits you again 
That time is the toughest to tackle
That day is the worst to handle....
What I know is
That day you will realise alot
But the one thing you will gonna realise is
Nobody is going to be there for you
Except YOU....

The less will be your expectations , 
and the less you will be in pain🖤🥂

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