I don't care people who decrease others and they're getting regret by themselves 

Motivation

Hey All....... 
Let's share your hobby... What u most like to do in your spare time.? 
🤔🤔🤔??? 

Celebration

At the end of the day you get what you deserve;not what you wished for.
That's life mate 🙂

Anxiety

Very often people say "pain is temporary"so I  tried to see pain in the same way.
Let me say it came in a very unexpected way,caused Chaos within me both mentally and physically ,could not talk to anyone or could not even get sleep for month's,made a panic even at things or people or anything the used to do or enjoy or be with , literally everything around me was seemed clueless & negativity was controling me , instead of me controlling it ,so happend over n over again untill one day a memory pop's up
 ,the memory which is when I was a  child whenever I used to feel pain , I was told "it's temporary stop thinking about it , everything will to okay ,alright or fine soon on bla bla bla  and I used to believe that and believe myself with a smile which was making me stronger and so it did , so even this time I  re-applied that memory and told myself that same words everytime ,  it worked , I'm still healing slowly but better and stronger than before ,
So let me say this again people 
Pain is temporary 
It's,okay everthing will be alright and fine very soon so please trust the process and most importantly please ,please ,please "Believe in yourself" , cuz your stronger 

Lot's of love 
Thanks for reading .




Mental Health

Relationship that started with sex... do they last forever?

3am Thoughts

No matter how slow you progress. You're still ahead of everyone who isn't trying.....

Gratitude

i know you aren't good for me, i know that i am better off without you. i know that the last half of our relationship was toxic... yet you moved on without hesitation. i see the photos of you and her out and i feel this pit in my stomach. the pit of thinking i am never going to find a person who truly cares about me and will be loyal. the years, the dedication, the energy, the love, the patience was all for nothing. i was used and used until i had nothing left and now i am too scared to love with all that i have to give. while you, you are out there with her and i can't help but think back to our early years of friendship and all those times my brain yelled RUN. the truth is, with all you have been through... you don't know to love and you use people to make you feel whole. when they get too close and they get sick of your excuses, you throw them away and you berate them with manipulative bullshit that causes them to think they are the issue. how could you? that's the question that i replay in my mind over and over. you used me and i was only good to you... i did nothing to deserve what you did and you're off in love again. meanwhile i am left to drinking the gin that i have hidden away in my room to stop my brain from spiralling. 

- S

Anger Issues

I feel pretty alone and i really wanna talk to my ex but i know i shouldn't
It will be better for the both of us if i dont.

Other

This is the first time I am sharing anything outside of my personal circle. 
I am 22. I am the youngest in my family of four, mom, dad, sister, me. 
My family has always been dysfunctional since its beginning but everything was kept under wraps, no one questioned anything. No one called out any bullshit. Everything was rainbows and unicorns on the outside. Things started going downhill since I started questioning why some things are the way they are when I started calling out everyone's bullshit and mistakes. It's just that everyone in my family, including me, is filled with ego, double standards and hypocrisy. The only difference is that I accept my flaws. No one else is ready to do the same. 
There have been many fights because of me calling out someone's mistake(not "they don't close the door on their way out", but "that is not the right way to talk to mom") since the lockdown started last year. I mean, all these days, everyone was busy with their works outside, we barely ate a meal together... not the same during the lockdown, you know, everyone under the same roof and everything. Right now, everyone in my family hates me, I am described as "The one who talks where she is not supposed to", I stay in my room day and night, I barely talk to anyone at home. I feel suffocated. I stay up in the night to feel good, all the silence and everything. I miss my friends. The farthest I can go from my home is the terrace. At times I feel like I can't take it anymore. 
In one of the fights, my Dad straight up said, "You have no right to question anything that happens in our family". I mean... how is it harder to accept the flaws and work towards rectifying than shushing someone just because they are the youngest in the family? Why is age such a big criterium for respect and criticism? Isn't family all about give and take? 
I mean, sure, I am the youngest in the family and I still do not know how some things work. But shouldn't there be a conversation? That way everyone can know why and how others think the way they think. That way everyone would know everyone's perspectives and opinions. Like Ranveer Singh says in Dil Dhadakne Do - "Iss family mein sab upar upar baat karte hain, alsi baat tho hota hi nahi!" This line resonates in me everytime there is a fight in my family. 
So... I do not know if things will get better in my family or if I should leave my family to keep myself sane. Either of these things is far from happening thanks to the virus and the lockdown. 
If you made it to the end of my rant, thank you. It means a lot to me to know that someone out there is ready to make time to listen to me rant. 

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