I can’t seem to get myself to do anything nowadays. I just stare at my phone and sleep all day. Even things that are important, like final exams and diploma work, I don’t do. I want to finish them, but the thought of studying or working makes me feel terrible. I’m so scared of failing that I end up doing nothing at all. Even as I write this, I’m putting off an essay that was due three weeks ago. I just don’t care, but at the same time I do care and I’m so stressed. I put off personal projects because I can’t be bothered, and I end up feeling guilty for wasting time. I hate that I’m like this, and I can tell that my parents and teachers are disappointed in me.
Sometimes I wonder if I have problems with mental illness, or if I’m just plain lazy. I keep making excuses for myself, and even by writing this I almost hope that someone will say that it’s not entirely my fault when I know I’m the one who let myself become like this. I want to say that I’m trying to fix this, but I just don’t know anymore.
It’s the same for me, I feel the exact same way right now honestly. And I read somewhere that one of the reasons people procrastinate is the due to the fear of failing. Whether I’m someone who should tell you you’re lazy or not, is not entirely correct, because I’m equal parts guilty. I think, the only hack or the only reason I’ve probably been able to push is because I just get the bare minimum done, maybe I’m too scared about the consequences of failing. Maybe that end result scares me enough to get me to do SOMETHING. So, I guess, just try to come out of this cycle of not doing anything and regretting it. Watching something motivational always helps me, when I’m trying to accomplish something. A good routine helps. A little reward system helps. I know it isn’t easy, and we’re all built differently. So, I guess we can just keep giving each other a push/motivation to work every now and then!
Just keep ur phone away from you. How? Try to be social not digitally but have talk personally… I went through this and just keeping phone away helps me alot. Problem is we are too much involved and connected
From all that the entire world is dealing with right now, it’s so easy to lose heart and to lose focus. It’s okay to not be productive all the time.
The fact that you posted this means you want to do something about it. For that, I’m proud of you already! That’s the first step. The next step, I believe, would be to interrupt that routine. Do something that makes you genuinely happy. Something that’s not necessarily important but something that when you do them, you will feel joy. Is it writing a poem? Reading a book? Exercising? Talking to a person? Listening to music? Anything. :) And then make a habit of that. Just so you can get your groove back before diving into responsibilities.