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I canโ€™t help but sit in my kitchen feeling bloating, fat, ugly, angry, upset, worried, and unloved. For as long as I can remember Iโ€™ve struggled with my eating habits but it didnโ€™t start to affect my life THAT much up until two years ago. I know I already ate, I know Iโ€™m full. I had 6 huge hunks of these almond butter bars and then two small tacos. Earlier I had a small bowl of cereal with a whole mango. I feel sick. I feel unloved. My boyfriend doesnโ€™t know. My friends donโ€™t understand. My parents will think Iโ€™m dramatic. My siblings are tired of hearing it. Iโ€™m so lost and so so so angry and I just wanna hide because I donโ€™t feel like I deserve love.

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Iโ€™m sorry you feel this way, just know youโ€™re better then that, and I love you, you shouldnโ€™t have to feel that way because you think you arenโ€™t perfect, no one is and everyone has flaws, I need you to not dwell on them so you can be the happiest you that you can be

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Hi. I go through binge eating and purging as well. Itโ€™s been over a year since this is happening. Itโ€™s not just you going through this and itโ€™s not you just eating away your problems. I know how it feels and you canโ€™t control it. This urge comes when you just feel like eating anything and everything. It usually happens with me at night around 11pm when everyone else has gone to sleep. I feel triggered to go to the kitchen and eat. Mostly I eat packets of biscuits, bowls of oats and mango, bowls and bowls of cereal without being able to control myself. I know what you mean. What really helped me was:
1) Firstly, I was on a diet for a very long time which made me binge more. I stopped dieting since 2 weeks and am eating normal food without measuring anything. I still binge but my quantity has reduced immensely.
2) I have started a 5 second rule- whenever I feel like binging, I count from 5 to 1 ( 5 4 3 2 1 ) and just walk out of the kitchen. Really helps.
3) I spoke about this with a friend of mine and tried to understand my behaviour. Itโ€™s important to talk it through- about what you are feeling before eating, while eating and after eating. It will help you. Please do talk about it!

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