I broke up with my bf cause i realised i can't commit to one person and hate to see him sad when i feel like leaving. I feel toxic and abusive because of that. So i decided to live but 2_3 days after i kisses i guy. I hate it I hate this feeling. I need to talk. 

Dont judge , there might be an underlying issue 

It's completely alright trust me. Maybe you are polygamous. Or not a person who believes in commitments(even I am just like you) I haven't dated anyone since 4 years and have been of different dates w different people. You don't have to feel bad about it trust me. And there's no compulsion. You don't have to stay with a person your whole life. And if you really want to, ik you will eventually get back with him. But you don't have to force or change yourself for someone else🫂do what YOU want. 

Cheating

Day 196 of writing journal entries.

Today was a chill day! Not to bad, but not fantastic either. I had a good day at church actually, I had fun with the kiddos and I’m excited to be doing photography for my church now. 

For whatever reason I was kinda tired the rest of the day, which is why I’m going to bed early tonight. I hope everyone is having a great day/night! Love you guys. 🫶


Personal Growth

I m being continuously mentally torched by my mother whn i was in 10th standard from then to now..  She keeps saying me that you r curse u should die get awy from my house..M good in studies nd i get schlorship every year she want  me to give my money to her nd not on education i keep crring daily nd having suicidal thoughts.M feeling like m Nothing to her She abuses me a lot. Whenever i go out nd back home  she treated me like shit nd saying that m a slut. Dont i have any rights to go out with my frnds  I dont want to lie here M 20+ now nd she wont stop I want to kill my self... I hate her

Child Abuse

Feel like doing nothing.

3am Thoughts

‘Kabhi kabhi Aditi’ is a song that reminds me of home. The song is full of optimism. My family tells me to be strong every time I  face some problem in my life and that is the theme of the song as well.

Life

Sending out positive vibes and energy when you yourself are so broken, why do you do it? Thinking people will love u more? How does it matter? Yes making someones day with a small compliment or a joke might seem like a nice gesture but.. will they remember that? Or will they end up being sad again by the end of the day? So is your effort a waste? Should you be back to the depths of your despair where there’s no pity no happiness just blackness. Hollow. Numb. Dry. Done. 

Confusion

Hello everyone! Hope you all are doing well. I'm not so active on now and me these days and also I don't want to be active here because I come here only when I'm going through some stress or depression. But today I'm not stressed rather sad and the reasons are again my close ones. We are humans only right, everyone has the right to do mistakes and to learn from that mistakes, then why not me!? I don't know why I am always neglected when I'm with my friends group. I question myself Am I that bad? I don't know I consider them as my best friend but they don't consider me I guess. Today I saw one of my friend celebrating her birthday with her friends, actually it was a surprise party for her, and she looked so happy, I literally got emotional. She faced very much hatred in her school days, and also I still hate her for doing injustice to me but I still love her pictures bcuz finally she is getting the validation she needed in her life. But I'm not that much lucky enough I guess, maybe I'm destined to be alone. Till death 💔

Mental health is a joke over here 
Just realised this 

Anger Issues

Hey ..
Excuse for my english 
Actually please help me out .
I want to face this problem 
1. Master in communication skill
2 I can't write grammatically correct English.
And last
3. How to face interview yaar(biggest fear of my life)
Please help me🙏 how can I get motivation??

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