I asked help from my boyfriend on the thing which I didn't knew and he kept saying you don't know this you don't know that . And it made me feel like dumb which i didn't liked . But then he said he was just joking . I don't understand if i should have taken that as a joke or not

Boyfriend

I'm hardly able to sleep, I don't know why. I am awake till 5 and I don't feel like eating anything as well. It's taken a toll on my health and I've caught fever. 

Mental Health

Oooooooooo
Oooooooooo
Oooooooooo
Ooooooooo

Cheating

Literally 6 butterflies touched me or bumped into me somehow from this morning( And I've rarely seen them since many years, especially in my city)
Is this a sign or something or just a coincidence?
IDK
It has me thinking since this morning

Hi hello namaste 

Dreams

Hey anyone up, can we talk ??
I am just not feeling good want to talk...
We can talk anything depends on yours mood.

FOMO

*pats my own shoulder* it’s gonna be okay dumb bitch 

Again and again, life telling me ki boss attachment mat karo... But me always attached to someone and regret later. On top of that privacy ki Lanka Lagi padi hai. New year in brown family always spoil the mood 😕

Frustration

I feel like shit. Basically I feel like I might be non binary so I did lots of research and found that its probably true, but i cant come out ever. I feel like my internalized transphobia from my peers and family around me is making me feel invalid enough to come as part of the 2slgbtqa+. I have a friend who is trans, and he come out to me 1 year ago. He heavily trusted me and we even picked out a new name for him. I think about him a lot but I cant get his deadname out of my head and I scared that If i see him, Imma call him his dead name and he will no longer trust me. I don't know what to do, my parents are always using his deadname around me so maybe that's it?, but it feels no matter how hard I try to get rid on my internalized transphobia it comes back to haunt me. I also noticed I only have a problem with him as I've meet so many other people part of the Trans community and haven't thoughts these transphobic thoughts. I got to a very religious school so its very rare are someone to come as part of the 2slgbtqa+ community. Someone from my school actually come out today but since school already ended I don't know how the school is going to react. I do have friends from my other school, who aren't homophobic and would heavily accept me but I feel like I don't belong to them anymore as I left them for a new school. (Sorry my grammar is shit, hope you can understand if someone reads this) I don't know what to do, I just need advise? help???? Any tips??

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