Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I am stuck in the quagmire of loneliness, I make every effort to get out, if someone offers me my hand I want to hug him, maybe he may not understand my situation but the situation is like this, I like to live alone. , but I want two or four people with me such that I may stay away from them but they have complete authority over me. Maybe I can meet them this year because they should come now.