I am restarting my life. 
I removed all people from my social media and actually deleted all social media too. 
I am starting new routines. 

Addy

Awesome. A good routine is something i am also trying very hard on

That's sooo awesome!!! New start ✨
All the very best

3am Thoughts

I honestly no longer feel s.a.f.e using social media anymore. 

Harassment

I'm being stalked online- I need help :[

Stress

did anyone else ever use the internet back in 2007?

does anyone else feel like u could have deeper conversations and make better friends online?

i used to use chat rooms when i was a teenager and had alot of problems at home and it helped me.

but now all i see is all these stupid chat rooms were people just want to talk about dumb stuff and how great their life is.

like taking pictures of their food they eat and being a airhead.

i wanted to find someone to talk to like when i was in highschool but everytime i go onto these chat rooms and its filled with these kinds of idiots it drives me mad.

its bad enough i cant find anyone to talk to in real life because they are all so busy going to work school etc pretending they are important and better then other people.

is it because social media has become more mainstream now? that there were less places on the internet to go to so everyone would only go to 1 or 2 main chat rooms or sites and that it?

i dont know but it really upsets me that i cant find a single person.

when i was in highschool i would vent alot on msn talking to my friends online and get emotional support insights brainstorming ideas etc that were so helpful.

one girl on msn took the time to talk to me and talked me out of thinking i was a bad person that my mother had psychologically abused me into believing. where have all these good people gone? are there any left who'd even listen?

ive tried other support sights and talking to psychologists psychatrists irl etc but i think they are not even allowed to give advice to a person because they dont kno the context of wat they are going through?

i've already been giving lots of bad advice and i feel like im already fucking everything up now so if someone did give me bad advice i feel like atleast i can just ignore it or something over a computer opposed to irl and talk down to and intimidated etc.

if anyone feels the same or wants something similar like a 1on1 chat plz reply

Mental Health

In this world of social media. We are not getting connected we are getting emotionally vulnerable.In my opinion we are comparing our lives with others.  Which was not even in trend if I talk about 7-8 year ago.  I am feeling depression and anxiety has become so common in us today should we blame this environment else we should learn to deal with this changing world.

Breakups happen so random and friendship happen so random over these platform this place is not for emotional and sensitive person. 
Else we should become higjly emotional intelligent.

We are getting affected by our surroundings so much because everybody has got many options if not this then that.
Become a choice not an option 

Psychology

Social media was and it's my salvation, but it's my worst nightmare. It's an addiction we're all trapped into like it or not.
I sound like an old conservative person, promise you I'm just a teenager. Hear me out.
The internet was my only source of happiness and my only escape in my childhood, the endless information and joy from it made everything worth it. Living in a third world country and in a working class family, we really didn't have much to do. Couldn't go outside because it was (sadly still is) dangerous, didn't have the money to travel to see a friend, the tv didn't have much channels and personally I didn't like toys so the only thing available I had was... a computer. Internet. Things weren't advanced as they're now, but oh boy I had a blast with the things there. Online games and the friends I made there kept me sane and entertained.
Things weren't bad. To my toddler me, I didn't think too much of it and I didn't worry about life because I couldn't care less about it. And luckly I had a more extroverted life outside, I had some more options. But things got tough, and only now I'm realizing how all of this wired the way my brain works.
When I got bored, I would reach my comptuer. If I felt lonely or sad, I would go to the computer. No matter the day, you wouldn't see me not touching my computer at least once.
Then we went to Brazil. There I was the HAPPIEST I tell you, I would barely touch technology. I had options, I had friends, I had a family.
Then, after one year of living there, we went back to my original country. It was so suddenly I didn't know what to do so I just... went back to my old habit of living my days in the computer.
After that things in home got bad, then worse. I was a child, thankfully and sadly the internet (and also life in general I would say) taught me things and I had some level of awareness of things. With that, I know what was happening in home and how reality was decaying. How can a toddler do something? What could've done to change things? I couldn't do anything, I couldn't change the course my life was going and being aware of that without the strength or options to do anything made me feel powerless, sad. All I had was... the internet. Was my safe space, my coping mechanism to this day.
I have a complicated relationship with the internet I would say. When I started high school, I noticed how this was damaging my mental health; some friends took my phone as a prank, but I acted erratic. I was anxious, mad. That response even surprised myself because I never reacted like that in my life and it made me feel scared. They laughed it off, just saying it was crazy. But after that I told myself I had to do something about it, because it wasn't normal. My friend noticed this behavior though, I appreciated how she tried to help me by giving some advices. I tried but spoiler alert: I couldn't.

Now, after all this rant, this sounds like a Me problem but think about it. Think how the internet impacted the younger generation and what it does now. 
Internet is wonderful, we can connect with people and share ideas, creations, we can help each other; we consume information, everything is easier. Except it make us addicted to it for these same reasons, and it's proved.
Social media is easy to access and we do when we're bored. Why? It generates dopamine in the brain. We're catching up with what's going on in society, with friends, the latest memes and musics, etc. All of these in entertaining and make us happy. This pleasure is dopamine, and it's the same reaction that make our brain scream MORE! MORE! until we spend hours scrolling through twitter, watching youtube videos, checking messages, etc.
Dopamine it what makes an addict addicted. Every thing you imagine a person being addicted unhealthly to? Yeah that person can't let go of their pleasure source. 
Most of the younger generation suffered because of how this world is works, and we have technology to cope and stay informed and connected. 
Of course some other generations aren't saved from going through this hole too, and I'm not generalizing the lives of the younger ones. Also maybe it isn't as exaggerated as my case, yet we can't deny how bad the impact of internet can generate in all of us. 
The system itself make us addicted, because it's rotten. They want money, they want us bored or sad so we can be stuck to the phone for hours without doing nothing but giving them what they want. They have acces to us, so they share ads and content to keep us looking at our screens. We wake up grabbing our phone and we sleep looking at it for the last time.
Sounds awful and what a karen would say I know😭, but give it a try to think the bigger picture and connect the dots. Now that we're in a pandemic and we're stuck in home, this could turn into a serious problem we shouldn't let it pass; or else we would neglect our mental health.
Everything I said can be relative to anyone because of their different experiences and way of thinking so I respect that, I really recommend y'all to think about it in general and not something specific because I do think it's a reality that's happening and I'm not the only one.

What can we do then? If I'm living this, how can I break this cycle? 
All of this is a system and we can't break it so easily because 1. it's been here for years 2. it's a complicated like every system 3. we can't help other to get out of it if they don't want to, but we can do it for ourselves.

We need discipline, and a lot. We can't live through constante dopamine, because to our ego there would be NEVER enough dopamine and we would want more; and if we keep feeding it, we would stop enjoying simple things of life. We would stop living because dopamine is all our minds can think of, it would make us depressed. I talk by experiencing this multiple times, it's an emptiness hard to get off.
We need serotonin. Seroronin make us truly happy, it make us feel full and satiated.
But most importantly, we need BALANCE. We can't exist without dopamine and serotonin together. The two of make us human after all. We need to control the ridiculous amount of dopamine we receive each day, otherwise we wouldn't be living thoroughly at all. Years ago I had the mentality of "But I can't quit this. What else do I have? What else I can do? I don't have options" but there are. There's so much we can do, even a person like me who's limited with money and all of that material shit can tell you there's so much we can do in this beautiful world. Don't let dopamine fool you.
I'm not recommending quitting social media or internet of course, I'm advising if you're addicted to it like me try to create a balance; find what works the best for you, create your own healthy system.

I watched videos and read articles about it, but this one explains it the best: 

https://alleahtheguru.wordpress.com/2020/03/31/ego-and-spirit-explained-through-neuroscience/amp/?__twitter_impression=true

After I'm trying to get my life together and better, I'm discovering my unhealthy patterns. This is my strongest one yet, and I thought I could share because it's something I know a lot of people can be going through too. I also recommend investigate about this topic yourself because it's so interesting how social media can manipulate you and your way of thinking. It's pretty interesting and makes you see the bigger picture.

Conclusion: create a balance between dopamine and serotonin. Watch out the time you spend on social media because it can do more harm than good.

Motivation

The world is a huge place and globalisation and the internet have made it seem a lot smaller but the fact is that it's huge. Without the internet, even our city seems huge. That being said, it fascinates me that in a time without internet, basically up until say 30 years ago, there were still so many similarities in different parts of the world. Take religion for example, that is something common across all countries. And it has been since Before the Common Era. With minimal traveling between places, people literally everywhere somehow had the same basic thought of constructing a deity and a group following it. Similarly with the concept of marriage, there's different ways and traditions but the basic idea of joining two people forever or whatever was common. I probably should go read some history because im pretty sure a lot of this might be inaccurate 😂


If my ex is on this platform to stalk me, I think you probably need help cr€€p.

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Why people show off.
even family things to strangers
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