I am feeling pretty shitty for the past 3 days. Au contraire, I should have actually been over the moon. I received my offer letter for my first job recently and what would you expect the day you receive your offer letter to be like? that too when its from a Big 4 firm? Happy? Excited? i thought so too but that’s so not how things turned out for me. My parents haven’t been the most thrilled about my location and now I feel guilty. Maybe I am guilty, I did make a small mistake, but in my defense I did do something to correct it, but it seems like that didn’t work. Anyways, now the point is that I have so much guilt on me that 1. I am no longer excited about my joining. So much so that i don’t really care about it anymore. 2. My unhealthy and futile coping mechanism to sleep during the day when everyone is up and study during night when everyone is asleep is coming back because i don’t want to face my parents. 3. I have my end semester exams in 5 days and i can’t focus 100%
I’m so done.
Why do you feel guilty? Sometimes we need to do things for ourselves even if that means going against our closed ones.
I understand that, but implementing that seems difficult. I’m trying to be fine with it but I don’t know, maybe the fact that the whole big discussion we had over this makes me feel I disappointed them and so I don’t feel so good.
Heyyy buddy, first of all, CONGRATULATIONSSSSSS!!! That’s a huge deal and not everyone is fortunate enough to be in your position :) I’m so happyy for you, you should celebrate.
Second, I can understand the burden of guilt that stays with you. That heavy feeling which prevents you from doing anything at all. I totally get how you feel. I understand your parents are upset over a mistake you made? The thing is- even though you made a mistake, and even though they got upset, its human nature for people to move on from their disappointment and completely erase the memory of one particular instance over time. So, even though your parents are upset right now, I promise you, they’ll forget about it over time and the only thing that will matter in the end is that you landed a greattttt job!!! 1/2
Also, you’re their child afterall. Ofcourse they’re going to move on and I’m a 262910% sure, they’re sooooooo proud of you!!! Maybe they arent showing it because they want to keep you motivated to do better? But anyway, the point is- it’s a wonderful thing that you landed a job from a really good company. Pleasee forget about everything and take a moment to realize how big this is and be proud of yourself. Everything else will fall in place eventually :)
Congratulationsssssss once againnnnnn!!! 🥳🥳🥳
Thank you so much!! your words are so kind!!
I really hope that with time, this feeling and the whole awkwardness dials down
Thanks a ton
