I am 18 years old, passed my 12th boards this year itself. It was a sudden decision to drop this year as i failed to get chance in art college, so its was decided next year i ll try again or study something else. Next session i ll apply again. I belong from a broken family. Never seen my biological father but mom got engaged with 2 men already (later still engaged). I was 16 when the my first step father got divorced and 2nd came in the scene within weeks. Suddenly one day after school i found out it was decided that he was moving in with us and nobody bothered to tell me. My choice never matters. Initially things were lighter, i tried copping up, but then all destroyed again. Mom never heard me. After my 10th board i decided to move outβ¦ But didnβt last long, i was brought back n things again got worst. Now i have live under the same roof with mom and her partner when we donβt talk or like to see each other. I am cursed/blamed for being born.
While i was dealing with this, i came across a guys who became my friend n later boyfriend. We were good for almost 3years. We were in same class. After 12th boards he moved out of the city but i had a sudden plan to stay. For 2 months after he was gone, he convinced me that we are going to stayβ¦ Its just the matter of few months then we ll be together. 1 week later thatβ¦ Suddenly he drops a fact that he does feels for me anymore. I tried to communicate and talkβ¦ But it went into vent. One day he wants to work on the relationship then other day it was nothing to him. He wants a break up but wonβt stop contacting me. Iβm not able to handle these. He canβt even make up him mind to one thing and expects me not to get hurt. Howβs that even possible, am i not supposed to get upset when says he doesnβt feel for me. According to him, me crying after hearing that was very unusual for him. Point is now i donβt even know whether he is there or not. And for me this boyfriend issue triggered all my other insecurities and fears from my past. Now Iβm struggling with every damn thing in my lifeβ¦ My mental state got shaken upβ¦ I seriously want to feel good but all i get is loneliness
Hey. Please donβt be at the disposal of this boy. He thinks that you will always be there whenever he needs you or when he comes back to you. Do not let him treat you like that option. Itβs not worth it my friend. You deserve so much more than this un-clarity.
Suha @suha
Dear
I feel sorry for whatever you come across at this early ageβ¦ But donβt you feel all your problems really made you strong. Yes dear youβr one of the strongest girl. Make sure βyouβ really need this relationship. A relationship should give you secured feel not fear. You have long way to go and do many good thingsβ¦ Take decision what you really wantβ¦ What will makeβ¦you feel better and go for itβ¦ Donβt ever struck in a place and spoil your mental strength. All the best