hi
hello… thanks for replying… just really want to empty my mind…
i say emptiee your mind, be like water… shapeless…
how? I mean, this past few weeks have been very exhausting. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. :(
can you tell me about it
All i ever long my whole life is a love that I was never given. Growing up, I experienced situations that I never wanted to be in. Saw moments that I never wanted to see… I am always left behind. Then came an unexpected happening in my life that made me see the world differently but all of a sudden I am left alone again.
what happened that changed your view bro ??
The way this person saw me. Everything changed. I don’t really have someone whom I can lean on when I have problems. It’s always I am the problem solver. But every time I feel so down and exhausted with everything that’s happening in my life, nobody is available for me except this one person.
That person is still there with you right ??
What else do you need bro then
No. He left. He asked for freedom because he said that he needs to fix his self. Everything was so sudden. We were okay… We were doing great and we even started planning our future. I asked him what happened then he said that since we are already talking about marriage, he needs to fix his problem with his past because he doesn’t want to be with me and still have this emotional baggage.
sorry to hear that…
so aren’t you guys in touch at all ?
And by the way are you guys teens ??
Like he wants to commit to me 100% but in order for him to do that is he needs to fix his self first by talking to his ex for a proper closure. In fact, I was not aware that he talked to his ex. But it’s okay with me. What is not okay is after they talked, he changed. He barely communicated with me the entire week. and he told me that he just needs to process everything that happened. I have no idea what happened to him. Only then I knew when we met and asked him what’s going on.
So did he moved on with his ex ??
He said that he was so ashamed of me because the fact that I already exist in his life, he felt something different after he talked to his ex which he is not supposed to feel. He told me that he wants to zero his chances with his ex. At that point I was so surprised. I did not know what to feel. He thought that he was okay already. That he has moved on. And we’re together for 3 years already. When he saw his ex, he realized that he was not okay.
Hmm i understand,
Old love shit.
So you guys broke up ??
we are adults already. We still keep in touch but the way we used to. Because he was the one who said that he wants to preserve whatever is left with our relationship.
so you guys are in a complicated stuff
yes… we broke up because he asked for freedom. I told him how can he give up so easily. How can he not find a reason to stay. I am very confused by just a while ago, he said that he was so sure of me. It’s just him who is the problem. I told him that I am will ing to compromise and help him get through whatever is bothering him. But he just doesn’t want any help. He is too self-reliant when in fact he needs help.
hmm…
well i dont know the details of it, but this looks to be one of the most mature ways
I am just so sad, lonely and I feel so empty. Because growing up, I never really had someone whom I can hold on to when life knocks me down. My family life is too complicated and he knew about that. That’s why I was very thankful that he came. He became my home. And he understood me in ways no one can. And now that he is going through something, I wanted to extend the same help that he gave me. But he doesn’t want any help. He wants to figure things out on his own. He pushed me away. I totally understand his situation. I am just having a hard time processing everything.
I guess some one else is commenting…
I would like to say, you should also part away because he already did
hello… appreciate your response…
Hey hi
