hi, I am struggling with my own self, I have been criticized a lot for not doing things rightly, and for a lot more things, and because of that 
I every time need opinions of others about me,  
I cannot take control or do anything that I want in my life, and I know it is because of how I think or how I process it, but it is tough, IDK why but I always want opinions of people who criticized me and i really don't know how to deal with the problem, i have identified the problem but i cannot execute it , 
also because of that i do not have my opinions about anything, i just say what they say, i don't know what is with me!!
if anyone could relate please help!!
ps: i am using this for the first time

i have realized and a lot of people have told me that i look lost, i wanna improve that, so i thought about it, and i found out that i have a maladaptive disorder and i have been living in a different world all this while that is a world in my head, where i was the character which i wanted to be in my real life, the bossy, the witty one which i am in some ways but not always and i realized that i skipped my real-life problems and the daydreaming was the only escape and now i want to control it and solve my real-life problems but...idk  i cannot because the real-life me is scared but also adventurous, spontaneous and have been criticized a lot, so idk how to stop and sold that rope and take the fuckin control of it  


how?? i lack execution process, there is evil me too which stops me every time, i don't have enough powerful why to start with? my evil me is bad and i know only i can just destroy the evil, how to do that??? please help


my evil side will let me slip the opportunity and then criticize me for listening to the evil side, ik its sick 


i think i need someone to keep me on check but i don't want anybody to do that 
please don't think i am crazy


thanks for not thinking i am crazy, but how old are you btw?


I have told you already, how my evil self works. I need to stop her from controlling my life so much.

i do not know how evil you are yet, cannot compare


I am the opposite, i want to meet new people (to an extent) but am afraid of being judged but i never let them find out 

I know the feeling to be just left with yourself, trust me, it sucks (sometimes in a good way too)!! but only you can change the situation

how are you getting this info.?
it is scary now! tell me your name!!


are you seriously from Mumbai who is a founder of a company??

i do not know anybody who is the founder of a company!

Mental Illness

I feel like sometimes I can be the way I want to be and at the same way the way people like me most to be but most of the time I feel so scared and lock in a fake character that I don't even like and people don't like either and i don't know how to unlock and leave that fear of be the me I want to be , because of that I'm struggling with having new friends and keep maintaining the ones I have. 

3am Thoughts

How to not care about anything? I always overthink about things and start blaming myself which is wrong! A teacher asked me questions and i hadn't read that topic so i couldn't answer. There were people in the class looking at me and also they knew the answer i mean some of them. It made me feel inferior as i was never such a bad student. Even now if i was told that they'll ask questions i would have prepared for it.. I came home and creid for an hour... This should not happen i know what my potential  is and just for not knowing a few answers i cannot blame myself

Overthinking

I have struggle story but i need success for that to show the people who looked down on me

Success

Quality over quantity, always. The size of your circle doesn’t reflect its value. Surround yourself with people that motivate you, help you grow and constantly cheer you on. Life is tough as it is, don’t make it more difficult by being around people that bring you down.

Accept YOU as YOU!,
Decide to be YOU, Regardless!
Be Unapologetically YOU!

Know Yourself! Become Better! And never change yourself for anyone! 

Stay True to yourself!

The world needs you! Go ahead and spread your message! ❤️

Life

**For you**✨✨

Listen....
" Stop worrying about other people understanding you . Get in touch with yourself instead . Focus on what makes you happy , what makes your soul feel at peace . . You are your biggest commitment , so start loving your flaws , your awkwardness , your weirdness , your intensity , your vulnerability , your everything . Life becomes so much more fulfilling when you are just simply yourself . The world keeps spinning whether people understand you or not so why not make this next trip around the sun about you . "
- unknown author

Mental Wellbeing

Why am I unable to accept what I am? 
Accept how I feel 
Why do I care about other people opinions so much? 
I am starting to hate myself 
oh no , I was already hating myself from a long time but realised it pretty late 

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