I am socially awkward, possessive, over thinker and what not.
I was talking to this girl whom I met in fb. I have trust issues as well, so even a little change in her behaviour, I overthink it and make it worse. I had not been to dates as m very insecure the way I look, with big nose, acne scar all over my face. However, I summed up all the courage that I can with positive thought and went to meet her. When I met her, I was socially awkward, I barly spoke. She always says that m too boring, but I cant find words to speak. So I sat there dumb, it was horrible. She had brought her friend with her, so it made a little awkward as they did all the speaking with themselves. Atleast there was no silence. But I did not play my part. I departed with them with guilt and dissatisfaction. Though I am happy I actually gone there on a date after all these years.
From that day, I feel she is ignoring me. It is not the same as before we met. Now we hardly talk.
I liked her but not able to impress her.
Well now m planning to ask her what she wanna do. If she wants to continue, which I dont think is the case, but I wish, m happy.
I want to end these insecurities, low confidence and all and be able to act like a man, speak out my mind.
Currently these words describes me : insecure about looks, low self esteem, possessive, over thinker, boring, ugly, depressed, anxious, socially awkward, numb, and what not.
I want to chage to: confident, happy, social, charming, good with talking, self loving, active, interesting, humorous, etc.
I willl love to talk about these things and how to change for better.
Youre clear with what you want. Just focus on how to work on it. Do you need help with anything specific ?
Sakul Thakuri @sakulthakur...
Thanks for replying. I know what I wanna be but not sure how to achieve them
Not think about what others think about you.
Do what makes u happy
That i can do… but many times its myself that speaks bad of me
Kisi chiz se darro mat
Jo tumhare mann mein bol dia kro unke saamne
Jo hoga dekha jaayega
Dheere dheere tumhe acha lagne lgega
Yes, m gonna do that…
Yes it will be good