Hi everyone, I am new on this app .   Well , its friendship day today , so happy friendship day to all .  I would love to make some genuine  friends on this app , so feel free to message me.

Sunil Kumar

Srikar Draksharapu

Happy friendship day to you and all others too 🎉

Friends

I am feeling very depressed and lonely 😭.I am currently working in a job but I have no confidence to do this job but due to poor family condition I worry alot what to do please answer me

Depression

Want to help
If someone needs a frnd or person to talk
Can ping me would love to listen to u
Can talk abt anything

Is anyone up ? 

3am Thoughts

Last night, I had a major breakdown. I had a huge fight with my mom and at that time I was already going through difficult stuff mentally and I was overloaded with the workload from school. I had enough because my mom wasn't trying to understand my side and keeps making me the bad person so I screamed at her to just kill me because I am so fed up with everything around me I wanted to end my life. She got mad at me and hurt me physically by pulling my hair, my grandfather had to pull us away. I didn't care if she hurt me physically because she has been hurting me emotionally/mentally for years. After that, I just kept screaming and begging her to just kill me just end it now because I don't want to continue any longer, I didn't care if the neighbors could hear us, I wanted them to know everything. She ran to the kitchen and took a knife and I was so ready that she would stab me then and there, but not she gave me the knife and told me to go ahead and kill myself now. That moment I felt numb because I realized that my mom does not have an ounce of love for me anymore. I always used to convince myself that she's doing the things I found annoying out of love like nagging me and stuff like that. But that moment hit me so much until today it's been replaying in my mind. I could've died honestly if it wasn't for my uncle he stopped me. I wanted to die, so my mom would be ashamed of everyone. She was always the type that cared about what people thought of her. She was plastic in front of everyone, pretended to be perfect in public. She was caring towards my brother and me in public. She would posts on social media about our achievements but she never praised us privately. When I showed her I was Dean's Lister, she immediately asked for a copy of my certificate so she can post it on her social media. Not once did she hugged me and said I'm proud of you, or say congratulations, nothing. She just wanted to boast. I don't like my mother. At this point, I don't see her as a mother anymore, but just a stranger. 

Motherhood

"Resentment is like drinking poison and hoping someone else to die."
What resentment are you holding on to? Why can't you let go of it now? If not now, then when? Is it useful?

It's getting harder and harder for me to fall asleep. I keep seeing the same thing over and over again, He was in his knees and had his hand on his throat, and the blood was squirting through his fingers. 

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